I'd rather chill for real
I don't know how you feel
But sometimes I feel like I'm
Workin' for nuthin' tryin' to get sumthin'
Every where I turn there's a bill standing out
Swim the river climb the hill
Complacency you ain't gone get me no no no no"
5 weeks of vacation is over and work begins again tomorrow ;( this emoticon doesn't express how I truly feel about the aforementioned statement.
Gosh this summer just seemed to just happen over a weekend. We tagged this the "Summer for lovas 2.0"....ha! I guess...let's review...in the order that I remember things
Ahhhh Essence,,,,Kanye...Best performance ever! And this is coming from the girl who had 3 row center stage tickets to the Heart of the City tour! Shit I have the Graduation cd in my car right now for days where I don't want to hook up the ipod...so I guess Graduation is my default music?
Ohhh I began knitting...umm I have a ways to go
I was FloRidin several times this summer and became very spoiled with friends who have beach houses and private beaches
Ahhh I hosted several themed dinner parties/game nights
Then I ended up becoming a habitual line crosser
Along with the influx of this got damned heat index of Hell seasons between close friends have changed. I have yet to address a couple of relationships because one of them needs time apart and the other lacks trust. I feel my lack of interest in pursuing and mending either friendship has a lot to do with my emotional interest to those relationships. Fucked up as it may sound I've put those situations on the backburner...and they've been in pergatory ever since. For some reason over the past year I've been able to become emotionally detached to a lot of relationships that are complex. It's hard to love unconditionally when it's not your family...shit...even when it is your family ;) but my need for space from this person has turned into a separation that doesn't bother me...I don't really miss it...the friendship. And that in theory is the fucked up part. No emotional connection regardless of time shared.
shit. now i feel like i'm rambling
Wow the past was perfect. Another weekend in FloRida followed by a week in Atlanta and back home to New Orleans to the best costume party ever!!!! :::Side bar::: didn't know you shouldn't smoke on the mary jane while intoxicated...oh i got that G.I. Jane motto embedded in my head...And knowing's half the battle!
So I spent majority of Saturday throwing up, hydrating, kicking back tylenols and eating freeze pops so I could be up to going out again that night...oh by 10pm I was all better!
"I need faces mad with frowns
When I'm around
Or I'm wasting the fabric" ~Nas
Flyest gear on and perfect new do in place (btw all but 2 inches of my hair disappeared last week ;) we hit the club. Cool crowd. We were dancing til 3 in the morning. Saw a guy I had been eyeing a month before. We exchanged info...we'll see how this Summer for Lovas 2.0 ends....
