A little Bee told me

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

The series of events that has shaped my life up until this very moment had me doubting and feeling inadequate for the turns (for the best) my life has taken. I often think I am not worthy of these blessings. I often sight my faults even when no one else can see them. I often feel that my hard work and determination are not worthy of the praises from others. It sometimes seems selfish of me to accept these praises and blessings when I know personally how others have sacrificed for me to be in this place. I say Thank you. Publicly, privately, spiritually I thank God for each and every one of you.

I am exactly where I need to be, to get to where I need to be going. I am full off of what I've learned but yet hungry for the lessons that are yet to be revealed.

I'm having nightmares...sometime i be 'noid

cause this thing...when plugged reacts to my tv remote

ish was spookin me out until i realized what it was

now i just unplug dat b! how u like me now!

I'm taking my freedom, puttin it on a chain, wearin it round my neck

Church was powerful

Prayer Always works

God Never fails


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I stepped out of church to this



A second line

....an Uptown second line...there's a difference

anywho, I decided I would take more pictures in the city...oh i mean in general

here are the ones for today











This guy just wanted me to take his pic...I LoVE New Orleans like i LoVE Black people...unconditionally. "Rebuild it again and again, the city never sleeps...Cause I don't wanna fight or attack no one. Just wanna write and give back to the city I'm a factor of!!!!" Damn, Jean be stealin my words lol. I'm on my New Orleans Shit!!!!!



after the uptown second line i headed downtown

HUD wants the sights of poverty in New Orleans gone. Out of sight, out of mind doesn't allievate a problem

These are pics from the Lafite projects. Their future is up in the air. Now I've seen vacants before...sorta just put a piece of wood up on the door. This my dear is a message...WE DON'T WANT YOU BACK is what it yelled to me

PHuck Statistics!!! and i mean dat ish too!

Stand Up NOLA...JAzz feSt is back in a BIG way!!!!

Harry Connick Jr., Rod Stewart, Steely Dan, Norah Jones, ZZ Top, John Legend, Van Morrison, Brad Paisley, Jill Scott, Ludacris, Dr. John, Bonnie Raitt, New Edition, Gilberto Santa Rosa, Irma Thomas, Jerry Lee Lewis, Counting Crows, Allman Brothers Band, Allen Toussaint, George Benson, Pharoah Sanders, George Thorogood, Stephen Marley featuring Jr. Gong, Better Than Ezra, Joss Stone, Banda el Recodo, Calexico, Taj Mahal, Johnny Rivers, Lucinda Williams, Branford Marsalis, Richie Havens, Soulive, Cowboy Mouth, Percy Sledge, Tony Joe White, Gillian Welch, Bobby Jones & the Nashville Super Choir, T-Bone Burnett, Rebirth Brass Band, Galactic, Mose Allison, Marcia Ball, Roy Hargrove, Chuck Leavell, Arturo Sandoval, The Holmes Brothers, Snooks Eaglin, Dr. Lonnie Smith, The New Orleans Social Club, James Carter, The Radiators, Preservation Hall Jazz Band, Lucky Peterson, Darrell McFadden, Sonny Landreth, Danilo Perez, Ivan Neville, Dottie Peoples, Davell Crawford, Ba Cissoko of Guinea, George Porter, Jr., Joseph "Zigaboo" Modeliste, Tab Benoit, Les Amazones of Guinea, World Saxophone Group, John Mooney & Bluesiana, Buckwheat Zydeco, Anders Osborne, Elder Baab & the Madison Bumble Bees of Winnsboro, Eddie Bo, Steve Riley & the Mamou Playboys, Rosie Ledet, Amanda Shaw, The Iguanas, Marva Wright, Walter "Wolfman" Washington, Deacon John, Donald Harrison, Nicholas Payton, Terence Blanchard, Troy "Trombone Shorty" Andrews & Orleans Avenue, Bob French, Elysian Fieldz, The Dirty Dozen Brass Band, Kermit Ruffins & the Barbecue Swingers, Ellis Marsalis and over 500 more groups.

http://www.nojazzfest.com/

February 20, 2007...it's going down

When I say Mardi Gras thoughts of under da bridge, lafitte projects, treme and mardi gras indians probably don't get mentioned or come to your head.

mardi gras is more than a marathon of showing titties and ish

it's a celebration of the perseverance of a community of the systematically oppressed

Racial autobiography

Who are you?

No really, who are you?

Name 5 things off the top of your head that describes you.

finished?

Did one of those answers refer to your race or ethnicity?

What is your race?

How long did it take you to answer that question?

How did you know how to answer that question...??? Clearly you know, without doubt what race you are...so how'd u know? Did someone ever sit you down and tell you, "Yes my dear, you're _____" I'm sure 9.9 times out of 10 this didn't happen. So how do you know.

What's your racial autobiography?

Woke up this morning...got yourself a gun

Where ya at Tony???? Huh????!!???!?!

dance like rudy huxtable scoring a touchdown, hands in the air, knees in knees out

I ought not to be allowed to talk on the phone...seriously. I just called someone and had a whole conversation with them...after i hung up I realized that I wasn't talking to who I thought I was talking to...The two people had nothing in common with each other. He doesn't even live in Louisiana?!?!

yeah, allow me to reintroduce sleep to my life

finished my books, now only my brief remains...so let me be (brief)

i begin my venture in the nonprofits tomorrow.

the more homework i have to do, the more i think of other things i could be doing

and the more i venture off into those "things" but don't fret...i'ma "Watch out" i ain't gonna let dem thangs get all up in my way. Okay, so something is wrong with my return key. It won't return to the next line...ain't this bout a b*tch. One book down...2 mo' 2 go. i'll get started on the brief tomorrow. damn, i really hope the Saints win tomorrow. Cuz drove to the Chi for da game....Don't forget the Garretts popcorn Garrett's caramel popcorn is the ish!!!!!

ooh..da return button has returned!!!! so that means i better return my ass to da next book so i can watch da game tomorrow

Step into the bad side, step into the baaad side

School's in!

Social life's out!

Saints are gonna kick ass this weekend!

Sheed, Purple, Black & Gold!!!!

Can't wait for Mardi Gras Break. I was gonna do the travel thing but it's going down in da city.

damn...i forgot all about spring break

i opposite heart tyra banks...and her little show too

ooh my guilty pleasure is on...The Best Week Ever!!!!

Eff what Paula said...she was on something "I'm a dancer"

Just in case ya'll are interested...these books are on it

i think i heart this man in a way that would be discribed as disrespectful to some LMAO...

MLK Convocation - Lecture
McAlister Auditorium
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
07:00 PM - 08:30 PM

21st ANNUAL MARTIN LUTHER KING JR. WEEK FOR PEACE ACTIVITIES JANUARY 15-19, 2007
Theme: "Defining Our Citizenship: Uniting Communities"

Keynote Speaker: Dr. Cornel West
One of America's most gifted and provocative public intellectuals, Dr. Cornel West's writing, speaking, and teaching weaves together the American traditions of the Black Baptist Church, progressive politics, and jazz. Dr. West graduated from Harvard in three years, magna cum laude, and Martin Kilson, one of Dr. West's professors, recalls him as "the most intellectually aggressive and highly cerebral student I have taught in my 30 years here."

Also
-- Presidential Lifetime Achievement Award recipient announced
-- Student Community Service Award recipients announced

Admission is free of charge. This event is open to public. For more information, call 504-865-5181. The event is being hosted by: Multicultural Affairs Office, and is sponsored by: Dillard, Loyola, Tulane and Xavier Universities.


Event Status: Confirmed

eh??? "b4 steve jobs made the ipod" (c) hov

ya know, just incase ya'll wanted to get me a june/july '07 middle of da year gift




and Stop callin me...I know The Wire comes on BET tonight...I signed da contract!!! I'm on my bring Avon back for season 5!!! holla if ya wit me

Heavy, heavy. You got so heavy on me.

I know I'm not the only one that breaks into songs from Dreamgirls at random times throughout the day "step into the bad side. step into the baaaaad side"

omG, school starts next tuesday...that means it's going down this weekend!:::does the zoom zoom:::

"what about what I need? what about what's best for me?"
In the midst of the funniest pedicure I caught a glimpse of the nightly news that featured a section on New Orleans. Brian Williams began to report New Orleans had more deaths (by murder) in the last week than in Iraq. Wow.

interesting

i guess this is the part where i go on and rant and rave on how effed up life really is down here. how some things haven't changed. how people are Pissed off down here. how we are still facing the same problems pre-katrina but with the added adversities of rebuilding, shitty, ruthless, theiving contractors, family members scattered throughout the U.S., and now 14 murders and we're only 7 days into the new year.

it's not that i neglect to blog about these issues b/c i'm ignorant to the facts and choose to focus on something else worth writing about.

it's just that

this is life. this shit here is real. this is what I'm walking out my front door to. it's surreal at times.

but i guess that's why i'm looking forward to school starting. talking and working in a setting that directly has a positive effect my community is the dopest part of the m.a. program i'm in. working with professors and faculty who are Really out in the community (pre and post katrina) making a difference

shit, don't let the blog fool ya. my crew is unfucwitable

"look at me. look at me. I am changing"

speaking of...isn't that the dopest song

All of my life I've been a fool
Who said I can do it on my own
How many good friends have I already lost?
How many dog nights have I known?
Walking down that wrong road
There was nothing I could find
All those years of darkness
Looking for some light
But now I can see


girl testify!

today was indeed better

today sUcked. Tomorrow will be better

curse u with 1 less finger than oprah, to danny glover in purple, ya purpose is over

Over a post midnight girls talk Peaches told me a was a borderline gangsta. I was laughing my AO as I thought of this today. She said my tattoo on my shoulder is close enough to my neck to consider me one. LMAO. I'm so glad for the people God has allowed to become a part of my life...at least for the present season. If ya'll don't know, Peaches is one of the Dopest poets outta New Orleans. She's also has one of the dopest spirits I've ever encountered. Thanks for being my friend, my sister, my buddy who I can email all the day long...and she'll reply even longer.

So I've officially sold out and joined blogger beta, and look what I get...an unjustifiable margin blog...SOmeoNe, AnYonE HElP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sometimes I keep it simple, f*ck what da nerds say; I ain't trying to impress you with the intricate word play

If we call this one "deaf"



Should this one be called "blind?"

LMAO

Wow. Happy New Year!!! didja do everything you set out to do in 06?

Me, well I never make New Year's resolutions...why? eh, doesn't really make sense; they're not too practical to me. trust, I don't mean to go all army on ya'll and say "be the best you can be" but hey, daily choices lead to those long termers and well, I gotta focus on the present and I just gotta be, be, be, be ...dun nun nun nun nun nuun.

I brought in the new year with da fam again. it's cool. Damn you katrina, teaching me lessons on how to appreciate my time spent with da fam. Naw, for real, I'm blessed. I thank God for blessing me with another day that just so happens to be the beginning of a new year.

School starts in 14 days...Eek!!! Alas, the grind is about to begin again. I was just suppose to take a semester off to recharge the batteries, but uhhhh well, if ya'll been reading, ya'll know the story. Things don't always go according to the plans...or do they?? I don't really question the order of things over the last year and a half...kinda just lived life while the motions were happening. I wasn't even suppose to be back in the city after the storm. Plans were to move to the Chi and begin grad school there. Cold feet, homesick, unclaimed responsibility...I had decisions to make. I'm satisfied and confident with the decisions I've made.

My gosh, I turn 26 this year eeekkkkkk!!!! naw, I'm kidding...no I really turn 26, it's just that I don't get turned off by the numbers game...and No, Jiggaman's "30's the new 20 anthem" didn't give me this confidence...Life and wisdom begat that ish!
Speak on it, speak on it...and i'll get back atcha when I wanna LOL