All I want for christmas

Just in case you were thinking, "what do i get (insert my name here) for christmas?

Well here's an early start. Plus, you get FREE SHIPPING!!!!!

naw, I'm just joking though...unless you want to get it for me. Smiles!

lovesmile

Somedays I find it difficult to watch the news. Sometimes I find it difficult to realize what people are actually capable of doing. My condolences to the families affected by this tradegy.

I comprehend yet, I understand nothing at all.

::sighs::

Well tonight I spent some time at the Beatriz Ball, Ball. lol. As if I needed to spend anymore time with my co-workers. I feel like my job can so have our very own version of The Office. Dang, I can't believe I've been working there over a year. Eff the cliches and all, but it does feel like just yesterday I began. It's cool, I bitch, but I actually enjoy my job more than I'll allow them to know. Shhhh and you don't tell em either.

I was involved in a conversation between two older married women. Woman B says to Lady A "Look at your husband. Isn't he the most handsome thing in the room?" I laughed because Lady A's husband was talking to Woman B's husband. But then Lady A says to us, "You know, I just don't even see that anymore. I only see the things that bothers me about him"...Wow. Reality check huh?

That disturbs me on so many levels that a wife is unable to look at her husband and feel the fire that began the journey of "til death do us part." I don't know. Sometimes I really feel that I have this fairy tale vision of love and marriage that aren't felt by the masses. I know right now I'm in my "naw, I'm cool, I just wanna be alone" rut, but i put that on katrina. I finally have an apartment to myself again, I'm having "private parties" ((c) india arie) everyday! ya heard!

But shit, I've experienced relationships. The best relationship advice I ever received was, "That 50%/50% stuff is just bullshit. See, sometimes you gotta be 80% when that other person can only be 20, and vice versa. But if you constantly find yourself in the same equation...you need to remove yourself from that problem"

No one's saying that its gonna be all good all of the time, or even most of the time. But dang, If I can't look at you, and know why we're still together, maybe we should begin that conversation that starts with, "we need to talk" and ends with "well, eff you then, I never liked your..." hahhahaha I'm just playin lmao.

So, future husband. I want to wake up in the morning, not really in your arms...cause i like my space when i sleep (well, maybe you'll change that, lol) but to turn over and look at you and lovesmile. I want to be at work and hear a word, that sounds like your name (but really doesn't) and lovesmile. I want to be in the grocery store and pass an ingrediant that's in your favorite food and lovesmile. I want to read an installation guide to my new computer program and play 7 degrees of seperation until it involves you and lovesmile. I want to come home and have a converstation with you about everything and absolutly nothing at all and lovesmile. I want to go back and read this blog after we've found each other, take a picture and post so you can see what the lovesmile truly is.

Another Again

"then we flashback to the first time you put your spell on me
you envelop me
you feel good
as hell
to me" (c) j. legend

whew. no sophmore slup for j. legend...well at least not in my opinion

so what ^? it's the end of the week already. my days seemed to have become labeled as: days I work and: that day I don't. I'm thinking of treating myself to a two day weekend this week! We'll see.

Is ticketmaster not the Biggest ripoff Ever? Why do the additional costs add up to the price of another ticket?

LMAO, I felt like I was in one of those Apple commercials where it's mac vs pc today. Lo siento...I need a left and right button on my mouse lmao

And a BIG WTF goes to Project Runway. Jeffery??@?@?!??!?!? WTF. Now, everyone who knows me knows I was pulling for Michael, but I must admit...dude didn't excute in the end. But even Uli was on point and you give it to Jeffery????? Nothing more to say. Ya hear that Nicasol???? lol

Speaking of, you're really gonna miss out tomorrow.

Props to da boss

Really...just half????

I'm out like the freedom of speech during the bush admin.

and everybody say "i remember way back when"

remember when Nia Long used to be in all of Chico Debarge's videos? and he and Joe were a duo...well it seemed like it

just remembering

I fell like that Superwoman Stevie was singing about

very well

but the fact is...

I need You

'member when the cosby's visited stevie at the studio "j-j-jammin on the one...robert...r-r-robert" lol, simpler times

I must admit, I've been living in the past for the last week, sorta having my own version of "I luv the 80s (and early 90s edition)

it started off with me having to work late last week. I needed to vibe to something but the regulars on the ipod weren't hittin it

so i started with a little pop rock in the Goo Goo Dolls "and i don't want the world to see me, cause i don't think they'd understand. when everything’s made to be broken, i just want you to know who I am"

don't ask me why, but that lead me to bump the celine dion "let's talk about love" cd. classic. i remember being in a hotel for one of those hurricanes driving my moms and my aunt crazy with that joint "tell him that the sun and moon rise in his eyes, reach out to him. and whisper, tender words so soft and sweet. i'll hold him close to feel his heart beat. love will be the gift u give yourself"

yeah and by that time my g.m. was raggin on me, so u know i had to go to the r&b vault...well not really vault...let's say r&b piggy bank

"Now it may be cold on the east coast, but on the other side of town...it never rains" now i think i heard Al Roker challenge this on the Today show this morning

Then i had to bring it back to the days long before the ipods and cds and even purchasing cassette tapes...yes pirating at its best...taping joints straight from the radio. waiting for that special song to be on your "hot 8 at 8" or whatever it was in your city and pressing that pause button to let your song record.....AHHHhhhhh Shit naw

"And I'll be thinking bout you
Every night and everyday
Cause in my heart I know
That I never should've let you go
And my love for you is stronger than I ever knew
But I couldn't tell you so
That I never should've let you go

Is there someone else,
standing where I stood
Giving you the love you never got from me
Girl I would give you the world
if I only could
Girl you will see
Will you come back to me
Won't you come back to me"

but u know what...naw ima let them tell u why...