black people love gangstalicious the way fat women love oprah lol

I freakin heart frankie b. and maze!!!!!!!!!!! it's just something about their music that is so familiar to me....freakin timeless..."that's the golden time of day!!!!"

damn, lately i have let work consume every possible minute of my day. shit even when I’m not there, I’m there. shit's gonna be weird once i start school again...or will it?

damn, it seems as if i just graduated. but naw, I’m a long way from working two jobs and being a full time student. Now...Everyday I'm hustlin...hustle real hard...i love that song, esp. hov's verse "Who u haters think u talkin to, I'm the fuckin boss!" oh snap i forgot to give my disclaimer at the beginning of this blog so i'll give it now. The name of the blog ur reading is "I'm Major" by Elisamk. so again...."Who u haters think u talkin to, I'm the fuckin boss!" damn i feel that dude when he says that

speakin of hov i've been listening to that PSA on the black album on repeat lately and just realized how dope that song really is "No matter where you go, you are what you are player And you can try to change but that's just the top layer Man, you was who you was 'fore you got here"

ridiculous

gosh i love music. I’m not bout to be on some "yeah man i just throw on some headphones to tune out and escape the world" type shit.

shit, that's disrespectful to the art; I’m on some ole "music is a part of my life, just as vital as my moms and dad's conception of me" type shit.

i love to hear a song that just takes me back. makes me sit back and think of...life. ohhh and i love to hear a song that i've heard a million times over and hear something i've never heard before or when I’m able to relate to some ish....gosh "green eyes" damn silly "e" badu is just dope. gosh i wish i could find the words to describe how incredibly talented this lady truly is...well i guess i have huh? Not really.

lol remember donell jones' "where i wanna be" cd...yeah that joint was hot but i hated when that single came out and all the dudes were all like "yeah man that's how i feel too, that's where i wanna be" awwww shut the eff up. that ish came out at the same time as toni braxton's "just be a man about it" and the girls was like "yeah nicca, just be a man about ur ish" awwww shut the eff up...nothing worse than a cop out song, and those were the ones for 2000

so while at essence, we went to the monique seminar and i walked in with more admiration for this woman than when i walked out. so monique came out and did her lil bit on Essence and her love for black women and how we should respect ourselves...ya know, the whole spill. But then she started to talk about her open marriage. Okay so I had been aware of her relationship by the interview she had with Jill Scott (I heart Jilly from PhillY) in the previous issue of Essence, but I wasn’t ready for the bullshit that was coming out of her mouth. Basically, the talk went like this “I love my husband, he’s my best friend, I find other men attractive, he finds other women attractive, we can have sex with other people and it’s cool because were are honest with each other, we tell each other everything” WTF?!?!?!?!?!??!?!??!? Really????? As long as I can remember I have heard the statement “men are gonna be men” what the fuck does that mean???? That I should accept a nicca that will lie to me just cause he couldn’t control his hormones, or maybe he didn’t tell me cause he didn’t want to “hurt me” or maybe he did tell me and I should forgive him cause he’s a man and “that’s what men do” UHHH NAAAAWWWWW I can’t accept this shit, this lame ass excuse that we have trained ourselves to accept. I cannot accept dishonesty.

Period.

Nor can I accept this “open marriage” bullshit. Matter of fact; don’t even use the word marriage in this justification of lack of self love, respect and trust. Why even get married???? No, really…why even get married if you want and open relationship? Don’t try to alter an institution based on what is convenient for your lifestyle. That’s not what it’s about.

I’ve been cheated on…it’s not a good look. I will not tolerate it. There’s too much shit out here these days to be bullshitting around…don’t know what I’m referring to…4 letters, small word, life sentence....a.i.d.s, there are many more consequences, holla at me if you need a list.

I was so thrown off by the audience response to Monique’s seminar…roaring applause from women and men of all ages. Was this shit really happening? Was I really in a room of people who were willing subject themselves to random diseases and blatant lies all for a little pussy/dick for a night?

Damn. We got a long way to go.

Other than that essence…sucked…well not big time but it needs to come back to n.o. I don’t know if ya’ll know but Mary J is so effin lady. Her performance was phenomenal.

Runner up….The Hip-hop pioneers: Doug E. Fresh, Slick Rick, WHodini, MC Lyte, Sugar Hill Gang, etc.

Oh and Bobby Brown’s ass is straight CRAZY, so he was humping the stage, saying the first thing that came to his mind and freakin stretched out Tenderoni 30 minutes, then after leaving the stage his background singers started to sing “my prerogative” so as b.brown is coming back onstage, Essence is like uhhh huuhh nicca we pullin da curtains. So this fool comes through the curtain. So essence is like “no this nicca didn’t” so they cut his background mics, the music and then his mic…good show bobby, I’m sure your invitation for next year is in the mail as we speak.

So uhhh it’s really past my bedtime but boondocks is on so I gotta throw the deuces.


Oh ima be in the nyc next month so if there is anything u think i should see holla at a comment!