Cause day n nite.
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at nite
He’s all alone through the day n nite.
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
Lie to yourself long enough and you'll believe what you say
The series of effed up events have lead me to this place called unhappiness. Now I'm on the pursuit to her better half.
There are so many things that I've given up for the acceptance of others, for things that money can't buy. I've compromised and justified every aspect of Self for selfish things.
Tonight I want to be better than I was this morning. Tonight I want to turn in the direction that will lead me to a place I once dwelled in. A place that allowed my Self to be at peace no matter what was going on around me. I've lost that place and oh how I miss it. I can't remember exactly what it felt like but even though the memory isn't clear...the thoughts make my soul smile.
There are so many things that I've given up for the acceptance of others, for things that money can't buy. I've compromised and justified every aspect of Self for selfish things.
Tonight I want to be better than I was this morning. Tonight I want to turn in the direction that will lead me to a place I once dwelled in. A place that allowed my Self to be at peace no matter what was going on around me. I've lost that place and oh how I miss it. I can't remember exactly what it felt like but even though the memory isn't clear...the thoughts make my soul smile.
Sunday, August 03, 2008
I don't want to go to work today....
"I'd rather stay home and play video games
I'd rather chill for real
I don't know how you feel
But sometimes I feel like I'm
Workin' for nuthin' tryin' to get sumthin'
Every where I turn there's a bill standing out
Swim the river climb the hill
Complacency you ain't gone get me no no no no"
5 weeks of vacation is over and work begins again tomorrow ;( this emoticon doesn't express how I truly feel about the aforementioned statement.
Gosh this summer just seemed to just happen over a weekend. We tagged this the "Summer for lovas 2.0"....ha! I guess...let's review...in the order that I remember things
Ahhhh Essence,,,,Kanye...Best performance ever! And this is coming from the girl who had 3 row center stage tickets to the Heart of the City tour! Shit I have the Graduation cd in my car right now for days where I don't want to hook up the ipod...so I guess Graduation is my default music?
Ohhh I began knitting...umm I have a ways to go
I was FloRidin several times this summer and became very spoiled with friends who have beach houses and private beaches
Ahhh I hosted several themed dinner parties/game nights
Then I ended up becoming a habitual line crosser
Along with the influx of this got damned heat index of Hell seasons between close friends have changed. I have yet to address a couple of relationships because one of them needs time apart and the other lacks trust. I feel my lack of interest in pursuing and mending either friendship has a lot to do with my emotional interest to those relationships. Fucked up as it may sound I've put those situations on the backburner...and they've been in pergatory ever since. For some reason over the past year I've been able to become emotionally detached to a lot of relationships that are complex. It's hard to love unconditionally when it's not your family...shit...even when it is your family ;) but my need for space from this person has turned into a separation that doesn't bother me...I don't really miss it...the friendship. And that in theory is the fucked up part. No emotional connection regardless of time shared.
shit. now i feel like i'm rambling
Wow the past was perfect. Another weekend in FloRida followed by a week in Atlanta and back home to New Orleans to the best costume party ever!!!! :::Side bar::: didn't know you shouldn't smoke on the mary jane while intoxicated...oh i got that G.I. Jane motto embedded in my head...And knowing's half the battle!
So I spent majority of Saturday throwing up, hydrating, kicking back tylenols and eating freeze pops so I could be up to going out again that night...oh by 10pm I was all better!
"I need faces mad with frowns
When I'm around
Or I'm wasting the fabric" ~Nas
Flyest gear on and perfect new do in place (btw all but 2 inches of my hair disappeared last week ;) we hit the club. Cool crowd. We were dancing til 3 in the morning. Saw a guy I had been eyeing a month before. We exchanged info...we'll see how this Summer for Lovas 2.0 ends....
I'd rather chill for real
I don't know how you feel
But sometimes I feel like I'm
Workin' for nuthin' tryin' to get sumthin'
Every where I turn there's a bill standing out
Swim the river climb the hill
Complacency you ain't gone get me no no no no"
5 weeks of vacation is over and work begins again tomorrow ;( this emoticon doesn't express how I truly feel about the aforementioned statement.
Gosh this summer just seemed to just happen over a weekend. We tagged this the "Summer for lovas 2.0"....ha! I guess...let's review...in the order that I remember things
Ahhhh Essence,,,,Kanye...Best performance ever! And this is coming from the girl who had 3 row center stage tickets to the Heart of the City tour! Shit I have the Graduation cd in my car right now for days where I don't want to hook up the ipod...so I guess Graduation is my default music?
Ohhh I began knitting...umm I have a ways to go
I was FloRidin several times this summer and became very spoiled with friends who have beach houses and private beaches
Ahhh I hosted several themed dinner parties/game nights
Then I ended up becoming a habitual line crosser
Along with the influx of this got damned heat index of Hell seasons between close friends have changed. I have yet to address a couple of relationships because one of them needs time apart and the other lacks trust. I feel my lack of interest in pursuing and mending either friendship has a lot to do with my emotional interest to those relationships. Fucked up as it may sound I've put those situations on the backburner...and they've been in pergatory ever since. For some reason over the past year I've been able to become emotionally detached to a lot of relationships that are complex. It's hard to love unconditionally when it's not your family...shit...even when it is your family ;) but my need for space from this person has turned into a separation that doesn't bother me...I don't really miss it...the friendship. And that in theory is the fucked up part. No emotional connection regardless of time shared.
shit. now i feel like i'm rambling
Wow the past was perfect. Another weekend in FloRida followed by a week in Atlanta and back home to New Orleans to the best costume party ever!!!! :::Side bar::: didn't know you shouldn't smoke on the mary jane while intoxicated...oh i got that G.I. Jane motto embedded in my head...And knowing's half the battle!
So I spent majority of Saturday throwing up, hydrating, kicking back tylenols and eating freeze pops so I could be up to going out again that night...oh by 10pm I was all better!
"I need faces mad with frowns
When I'm around
Or I'm wasting the fabric" ~Nas
Flyest gear on and perfect new do in place (btw all but 2 inches of my hair disappeared last week ;) we hit the club. Cool crowd. We were dancing til 3 in the morning. Saw a guy I had been eyeing a month before. We exchanged info...we'll see how this Summer for Lovas 2.0 ends....
Monday, July 14, 2008
"My hands don’t like to be unemployed they like to work "
It's weird. If you know me or been through my ipod you would never expect Plies' "The Definition of Real" to pop up...or if you saw it you would probably assume that I was on that Bust it Baby like the rest of the world huh?
Dude I heart this dude. He's that dude from round the block. All jokes aside. He reminds me of this D-boy i kicked it with. Everything about us kicking it was wrong...and please believe I knew better...but. Shit happens...and I liked it...it's over now though...probably dude to him facing some time on federal charges along with a dictionary worth of a to z's of additional reasons.
Can't like though, dude had game...but it was crazy cause a lot of that game was being blunt and honest bout shit. He was attracted to this good girl/school girl image and I was attracted to the hustler...and between that dope ass conversations ensued....minus all the bullshit.
I respected that about him.
Long story short, Plies reminds me of him...or at least through his music. Raps about what he knows even though it comes off as ignorant as the phuck to some...i like it...just like i liked that dude
It's been a long time...i shouldn't have left you...without a dope blog to read to
So it's been a minute...well I hope I can keep it up this time. Actually, I may just like I may not....problem is life hasn't been too consistent lately.
Sorta like that Nas rhyme "A thug changes, and love changes and best friends become strangers, word up"
Now for some reason Nina Simone's "Motherless Child" is going through my head...pretty apparent why it's hard for me to keep on track.
Well there's a new blog address...the one that's above. When I first started blogging it was right after moving back to the N.O. after Katrini and I just wanted to share my thoughts with everyone expecting feedback of any sort. So I emailed my friends and fam the blog address and before I knew it conversations being held over dinner or dessert somehow ending up referencing some part of a blog entry...which was cool for the time.
The more that started happening the more I wished I hadn't sent the address to certain people. It prohibited my writing/blogging to a more generic Minority Reporter...one that wouldn't discuss personal issues for fear of backlash or someone taking things personal or for the simple fact of me just not being that type of person who likes people in their business....funny that's the case and this blog is available to millions upon a search engine huh? lol
Well here's my declaration...this dat New new shit....lmao
I want to consistently blog.
That's it.
So here we go.....
Sorta like that Nas rhyme "A thug changes, and love changes and best friends become strangers, word up"
Now for some reason Nina Simone's "Motherless Child" is going through my head...pretty apparent why it's hard for me to keep on track.
Well there's a new blog address...the one that's above. When I first started blogging it was right after moving back to the N.O. after Katrini and I just wanted to share my thoughts with everyone expecting feedback of any sort. So I emailed my friends and fam the blog address and before I knew it conversations being held over dinner or dessert somehow ending up referencing some part of a blog entry...which was cool for the time.
The more that started happening the more I wished I hadn't sent the address to certain people. It prohibited my writing/blogging to a more generic Minority Reporter...one that wouldn't discuss personal issues for fear of backlash or someone taking things personal or for the simple fact of me just not being that type of person who likes people in their business....funny that's the case and this blog is available to millions upon a search engine huh? lol
Well here's my declaration...this dat New new shit....lmao
I want to consistently blog.
That's it.
So here we go.....
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Bittersweet
You're gonna be the death of me
I don't want you, but I need you
I love you and hate you at the very same time
See what I want so much, shit never hurt this bad
Never did this before, that's what the virgin says
We've been generally warned, that's what the surgeon says
God talk to me now, this is an emergency
I don't want you, but I need you
I love you and hate you at the very same time
See what I want so much, shit never hurt this bad
Never did this before, that's what the virgin says
We've been generally warned, that's what the surgeon says
God talk to me now, this is an emergency
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
So I jacked an idea for a blog...but I gave credit
I’m sure you’ve played this game before; but suppose you were stranded on a deserted island with a solar powered iPod. I’m sure you’re thinking “Bet, 160 gigs of music I’ll be set until I’m rescued!” The only catch is that for the solar power to work you can only have ten albums. Not really logical, but neither is being on stranded on an island, so play along. What ten would you pick?
Who Is Jill Scott?: Words and Sounds, Vol. 1 - Jilly from Philly
Mama's Gun - Silly E Badu
Frank - Blake Incarcerated aka Amy Winehouse
Aquemini - Outkast
American Gangster - Jay everyday
Graduation - And oh yeah Yeezy
The Cool - Lupe
It Was Written - Nas
This Week - Jean Greezy
Purple Rain Sdtk - Prince
Who Is Jill Scott?: Words and Sounds, Vol. 1 - Jilly from Philly
Mama's Gun - Silly E Badu
Frank - Blake Incarcerated aka Amy Winehouse
Aquemini - Outkast
American Gangster - Jay everyday
Graduation - And oh yeah Yeezy
The Cool - Lupe
It Was Written - Nas
This Week - Jean Greezy
Purple Rain Sdtk - Prince
Sunday, February 24, 2008
And if somebody would of told me a month ago frontin' tho, Yo I wouldn't wanna know
If somebody would of told me a year ago it'll go get this difficult
"Even the sun goes down
heroes eventually die
Horoscopes often lie
and sometimes "y"
nothin' is for sure
nothin' is for certain
nothin' lasts forever"
Fin.
"Even the sun goes down
heroes eventually die
Horoscopes often lie
and sometimes "y"
nothin' is for sure
nothin' is for certain
nothin' lasts forever"
Fin.
Monday, February 18, 2008
If you're not caught up on the OnDemand episodes of The Wire...don't be reading my bleezy
cause Ima be on some "Damnnnnnn you see Omar Little get murked?"
OMG
OmG
OmGoshhhhhhhhhhh
So I retired around 9 last night with the intention of catching the new episode of The Wire this morning and finishing on my lunch break...but I wanna get all restless at 2am...so what I do...get outta bed and head to the living room to watch my favorite show of all time!
...and I can't even lie. When Omar asked for that pack of newports it seemed a bit eerie...ARGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...and oh how I loved how Lester got all up in Sen. Davis' ass....
damn
only 2 episodes left
shit
HA...and Pooh working at your neighborhood footlocker...
State of the Black Union's this weekend...anyone going
I'm about to crash...I gotta get up at 6 to workout....
trynna make a habit of this
we'll see
bye
!
OMG
OmG
OmGoshhhhhhhhhhh
So I retired around 9 last night with the intention of catching the new episode of The Wire this morning and finishing on my lunch break...but I wanna get all restless at 2am...so what I do...get outta bed and head to the living room to watch my favorite show of all time!
...and I can't even lie. When Omar asked for that pack of newports it seemed a bit eerie...ARGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...and oh how I loved how Lester got all up in Sen. Davis' ass....
damn
only 2 episodes left
shit
HA...and Pooh working at your neighborhood footlocker...
State of the Black Union's this weekend...anyone going
I'm about to crash...I gotta get up at 6 to workout....
trynna make a habit of this
we'll see
bye
!
Saturday, February 09, 2008
"I love the Lord, but sometimes it's like that I love me more"
Somehow I can't get past track #4 on The Cool. The first verse pops off with the realest ish I ever heard...not Pac inspired...well, it may be...idk
I've began the process of that whole "looking in the mirror...finding the root of all that anger"
I'm upset with myself. I hear M.Dot on the other end of the phone telling me "You know better!"
duuuuuude....I KNOW!
I Do!
This shit hurts though.
I've exposed scars that weren't yet completely healed and turned away from things that would've made the situation better.
I KNOW BETTER
i do.
I've began the process of that whole "looking in the mirror...finding the root of all that anger"
I'm upset with myself. I hear M.Dot on the other end of the phone telling me "You know better!"
duuuuuude....I KNOW!
I Do!
This shit hurts though.
I've exposed scars that weren't yet completely healed and turned away from things that would've made the situation better.
I KNOW BETTER
i do.
Thursday, February 07, 2008
I couldn't be unemployed
I mean as much as I dread getting up early Monday thru Friday mornings (and I sincerely Love my job)...i just couldn't spend many days like today...I did absolutly NOTHING
and to top it off I'm fading back to Black with Amy...I know this isn't heathly for my day...
My French coworker (wait...all but 3 of my coworkers are French...well you get me) made me her version of an apple pie to welcome me to the neighborhood...did I mention that I moved? OHhh...well my new place is GREAT!
A QUICHE'
Yummy!
I finally bought some more hangers and now I'm completely unpacked...well...with the clothes at least
a box free bedroom...now I think I'll sleep in there!
I'm going crazy...I think I miss work?
and to top it off I'm fading back to Black with Amy...I know this isn't heathly for my day...
My French coworker (wait...all but 3 of my coworkers are French...well you get me) made me her version of an apple pie to welcome me to the neighborhood...did I mention that I moved? OHhh...well my new place is GREAT!
A QUICHE'
Yummy!
I finally bought some more hangers and now I'm completely unpacked...well...with the clothes at least
a box free bedroom...now I think I'll sleep in there!
I'm going crazy...I think I miss work?
OnDemand is celebrating Black History Month
And I love it...shiiiiiiittttt (imitating Sen Clay Davis) this part still gives me chills...and to be honest, I've watched The Wiz twice since yesterday...watch out Devil Wears Prada. "Get me Demarchelier!...I have Patrick!"
Sen. Obama's in New Orleans today
without mr. bridges though :(
Has anyone been watching Boondocks lately? Ish has been extra hilarious!!!!!
Homies Over Hoes...Catcher Freeman..."Can a nicka borrow a french fry?"
Damn and I thought it couldn't get any better than season 1 "Huey, I just don't think I belong in this new world. I don't know if I need the 20 gig iPod or the 40 gig. I tried to download some Mahalia Jackson, but I lost my iTunes password."
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
Mardi Gras 2008 came and went...and now I detoxing...
my day started with
Cause this is how I spend the last 120 hrs...
.....Ahhhh...and ya know ya girl is off til Monday!!!!
GEAUX NEW ORLEANS!!!!!
Cause this is how I spend the last 120 hrs...
.....Ahhhh...and ya know ya girl is off til Monday!!!!
GEAUX NEW ORLEANS!!!!!
Sunday, February 03, 2008
Little Miss Sunshine's on Vacation
I've been an angry bear for the past couple of weeks and it's beginning to show. In some aspects life's been great...work is great...great set of friends, fam...etc.
...but on the other hand relationships with others have been strained. I feel like writing in my Blog of a Mad Black Woman...but I'm not actually mad...just dissappointed in some people and somewhat confused about how to go at certain situations. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr
In between parades I walked 4 miles...not on purpose...it just kinda happened while talking about life. Its interesting to see the connections that I've been having with people lately. It's refreshing to me...but it seems to be intimidating to others...grrrrrrrrr
Anyways I have the week off!!!!!! Only in New Orleans huh? Lol!
Go Giants!
Go Saints!...next year!
Go Mardi Gras!!!!!!
Friday, February 01, 2008
Hip Hop SML
Ahhhhh...Mardi Gras!!!!! I don't go back to work til the 11th...only in New Orleans!!!
I'm just trying to rest up right now...Zulu Ball is tonight and you know how I feel about Doug E. Fresh..fresh..fresh!
and on another note...
isn't The Cool the hottest ish on the streets
I'm just trying to rest up right now...Zulu Ball is tonight and you know how I feel about Doug E. Fresh..fresh..fresh!
and on another note...
isn't The Cool the hottest ish on the streets
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Texas is proud to be PRO LIFE!!!
....well kinda...depending on the person...
I'm in Texas right now and this ish scares me. It's funny cause just the other day someone asked me the difference between the Criminal justice system and Criminal legal system (the latter being the term I use)
My answer was simply...Racism
I guess you gotta know me to understand that answer lol
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
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