Bittersweet

You're gonna be the death of me
I don't want you, but I need you
I love you and hate you at the very same time
See what I want so much, shit never hurt this bad
Never did this before, that's what the virgin says
We've been generally warned, that's what the surgeon says

God talk to me now, this is an emergency

So I jacked an idea for a blog...but I gave credit

I’m sure you’ve played this game before; but suppose you were stranded on a deserted island with a solar powered iPod. I’m sure you’re thinking “Bet, 160 gigs of music I’ll be set until I’m rescued!” The only catch is that for the solar power to work you can only have ten albums. Not really logical, but neither is being on stranded on an island, so play along. What ten would you pick?


Who Is Jill Scott?: Words and Sounds, Vol. 1 - Jilly from Philly
Mama's Gun - Silly E Badu
Frank - Blake Incarcerated aka Amy Winehouse
Aquemini - Outkast
American Gangster - Jay everyday
Graduation - And oh yeah Yeezy
The Cool - Lupe
It Was Written - Nas
This Week - Jean Greezy
Purple Rain Sdtk - Prince

And if somebody would of told me a month ago frontin' tho, Yo I wouldn't wanna know

If somebody would of told me a year ago it'll go get this difficult

"Even the sun goes down
heroes eventually die
Horoscopes often lie
and sometimes "y"
nothin' is for sure
nothin' is for certain
nothin' lasts forever"

Fin.

If you're not caught up on the OnDemand episodes of The Wire...don't be reading my bleezy

cause Ima be on some "Damnnnnnn you see Omar Little get murked?"

OMG

OmG
OmGoshhhhhhhhhhh

So I retired around 9 last night with the intention of catching the new episode of The Wire this morning and finishing on my lunch break...but I wanna get all restless at 2am...so what I do...get outta bed and head to the living room to watch my favorite show of all time!

...and I can't even lie. When Omar asked for that pack of newports it seemed a bit eerie...ARGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...and oh how I loved how Lester got all up in Sen. Davis' ass....

damn

only 2 episodes left

shit

HA...and Pooh working at your neighborhood footlocker...

State of the Black Union's this weekend...anyone going

I'm about to crash...I gotta get up at 6 to workout....

trynna make a habit of this

we'll see

bye

!

"I love the Lord, but sometimes it's like that I love me more"

Somehow I can't get past track #4 on The Cool. The first verse pops off with the realest ish I ever heard...not Pac inspired...well, it may be...idk

I've began the process of that whole "looking in the mirror...finding the root of all that anger"

I'm upset with myself. I hear M.Dot on the other end of the phone telling me "You know better!"

duuuuuude....I KNOW!

I Do!

This shit hurts though.

I've exposed scars that weren't yet completely healed and turned away from things that would've made the situation better.

I KNOW BETTER

i do.

I couldn't be unemployed

I mean as much as I dread getting up early Monday thru Friday mornings (and I sincerely Love my job)...i just couldn't spend many days like today...I did absolutly NOTHING

and to top it off I'm fading back to Black with Amy...I know this isn't heathly for my day...

My French coworker (wait...all but 3 of my coworkers are French...well you get me) made me her version of an apple pie to welcome me to the neighborhood...did I mention that I moved? OHhh...well my new place is GREAT!



A QUICHE'



Yummy!

I finally bought some more hangers and now I'm completely unpacked...well...with the clothes at least






a box free bedroom...now I think I'll sleep in there!


I'm going crazy...I think I miss work?

OnDemand is celebrating Black History Month

And I love it...shiiiiiiittttt (imitating Sen Clay Davis) this part still gives me chills...and to be honest, I've watched The Wiz twice since yesterday...watch out Devil Wears Prada. "Get me Demarchelier!...I have Patrick!"

Sen. Obama's in New Orleans today


without mr. bridges though :(

Has anyone been watching Boondocks lately? Ish has been extra hilarious!!!!!


Homies Over Hoes...Catcher Freeman..."Can a nicka borrow a french fry?"

Damn and I thought it couldn't get any better than season 1 "Huey, I just don't think I belong in this new world. I don't know if I need the 20 gig iPod or the 40 gig. I tried to download some Mahalia Jackson, but I lost my iTunes password."

Mardi Gras 2008 came and went...and now I detoxing...

my day started with


Cause this is how I spend the last 120 hrs...

















.....Ahhhh...and ya know ya girl is off til Monday!!!!

GEAUX NEW ORLEANS!!!!!

Little Miss Sunshine's on Vacation

I've been an angry bear for the past couple of weeks and it's beginning to show. In some aspects life's been great...work is great...great set of friends, fam...etc.

...but on the other hand relationships with others have been strained. I feel like writing in my Blog of a Mad Black Woman...but I'm not actually mad...just dissappointed in some people and somewhat confused about how to go at certain situations. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr

In between parades I walked 4 miles...not on purpose...it just kinda happened while talking about life. Its interesting to see the connections that I've been having with people lately. It's refreshing to me...but it seems to be intimidating to others...grrrrrrrrr

Anyways I have the week off!!!!!! Only in New Orleans huh? Lol!

Go Giants!

Go Saints!...next year!

Go Mardi Gras!!!!!!

cause I'm on ticketmaster.com rite now

Hip Hop SML

Ahhhhh...Mardi Gras!!!!! I don't go back to work til the 11th...only in New Orleans!!!

I'm just trying to rest up right now...Zulu Ball is tonight and you know how I feel about Doug E. Fresh..fresh..fresh!



and on another note...


isn't The Cool the hottest ish on the streets

Texas is proud to be PRO LIFE!!!

....well kinda...depending on the person...




I'm in Texas right now and this ish scares me. It's funny cause just the other day someone asked me the difference between the Criminal justice system and Criminal legal system (the latter being the term I use)

My answer was simply...Racism

I guess you gotta know me to understand that answer lol

even my mama buys Lupe's ish

When it all...all falls down...

I pay approximately 120% more per month in rent than I did pre-katrina. You can imagine the dismay that enrages me anytime I hear the comment "You playing the Katrina card?"

Really...card...oh sorta like that Race/Gender card huh?

I guess it stings a little more from people that look just like you asking you "why haven't ya'll done anything yet?" "What's taking so long?" "Why can't ya'll just move on"

I tell you, I've never been one to remember anything but August 28-29, 2005 are two days in which I can recall every second of the day. And now there are only two ways to define time...before Katrina and after. It doesn't matter if your house withstood the wind/water damage of Katrina...nothing in your life is the same. I guess that's why I'm so unaffected by everything else...which can be a bad and good thing...but real shit. I approach most things like "This isn't the worst thing that has ever happened to me...so eff it"

Katrina Card 145666 As of this school semester there are only 2 schools in New Orleans that offer MSW programs and 1 that offers MA Sociology program

Upon completing my first semester in my MA Sociology program I began working with residents of Greater New Orleans housing projects contesting their right to return home. A class action lawsuit had already been filed against HUD and HANO. and I could see every aspect of my trainings of intersectionality of oppressions come full circle. Then I started reminsing about the Hope VI victory of the St. Thomas projects. Ahhh affordable mixed income housing...lol.

Last week I had to make a couple of runs to City Hall last week. And I saw this on City Hall's front lawn




Shiiittt then I started to reminise about the images I saw the days after Katrina.

So we have hundreds of homeless people literally sleeping on the mayor's front lawn.


Rent is still sky high

and in other news...HUD/HANO have decided to forgo the aformentioned pending lawsuit and throw some Demolition D's on the Pjs.

My Grammy Predictions...only for catagories I care about

Album Of The Year:
Echoes, Silence, Patience & Grace (Foo Fighters)
These Days (Vince Gill)
River: The Joni Letters (Herbie Hancock)
Graduation (Kanye West)
Back To Black (Amy Winehouse)

Record Of The Year:
"Irreplaceable" (Beyoncé)
"The Pretender" (Foo Fighters)
"Umbrella" (Rihanna Featuring Jay-Z)
"What Goes Around…Comes Around" (Justin Timberlake)
"Rehab" (Amy Winehouse)

Song Of The Year:
"Before He Cheats," John Kear & Chris Tompkins, songwriters (Carrie Underwood, artist)
"Hey There Delilah," Tom Higgenson, songwriter (Plain White T's, artist)
"Like A Star," Corinne Bailey Rae, songwriter (Corinne Bailey Rae, artist)
"Rehab," Amy Winehouse, songwriter (Amy Winehouse, artist)
"Umbrella," Shawn Carter, Kuk Harrell, Terius "Dream" Nash & Christopher Stewart, songwriters (Rihanna Featuring Jay-Z, artist)

Best New Artist:
Feist
Ledisi
Paramore
Taylor Swift
Amy Winehouse



Best Female Pop Vocal Performance
* Candyman
Christina Aguilera

* 1234
Feist
Track from: The Reminder

* Big Girls Don't Cry
Fergie
Track from: The Dutchess

* Say It Right
Nelly Furtado
Track from: Loose

* Rehab
Amy Winehouse
Track from: Back To Black




Field 6 - R&B
Category 23 - Best Female R&B Vocal Performance
(For a solo vocal performance. Singles or Tracks only.)

• Just Fine
Mary J. Blige

• When I See You
Fantasia
Track from: Fantasia

• No One
Alicia Keys

• If I Have My Way
Chrisette Michele
Track from: I Am

• Hate On Me
Jill Scott
Track from: The Real Thing

Field 6 - R&B
Category 24 - Best Male R&B Vocal Performance
(For a solo vocal performance. Singles or Tracks only.)

• Woman
Raheem DeVaughn

• B.U.D.D.Y.
Musiq Soulchild
Track from: Luvanmusiq

• Because Of You
Ne-Yo

• Future Baby Mama
Prince
Track from: Planet Earth

• Please Don't Go
Tank
Track from: Sex, Love & Pain

Field 6 - R&B
Category 27 - Best Urban/Alternative Performance
(For solo, duo, group or collaborative performances, with vocals. Singles or Tracks only.)

• Make A Baby
Vikter Duplaix
Track from: Bold And Beautiful

• That’s The Way Of The World
Dwele
Track from: Interpretations: Celebrating The Music Of Earth, Wind & Fire

• Daydreamin'
Lupe Fiasco Featuring Jill Scott
Track from: Lupe Fiasco's Food & Liquor

• Fantasy
Meshell Ndegeocello
Track from: Interpretations: Celebrating The Music Of Earth, Wind & Fire

• Dream
Alice Smith
Track from: For Lovers, Dreamers & Me

Field 7 - Rap
Category 31 - Best Rap Solo Performance
(For a solo Rap performance. Singles or Tracks only.)

• The People
Common
Track from: Finding Forever

• I Get Money
50 Cent
Track from: Curtis

• Show Me What You Got
Jay-Z
Track from: Kingdom Come

• Big Things Poppin' (Do It)
T.I.

• Stronger
Kanye West
Track from: Graduation


Field 7 - Rap
Category 32 - Best Rap Performance By A Duo Or Group
(For duo, group or collaborative performances of Rap only. Singles or Tracks only.)

• Southside
Common Featuring Kanye West
Track from: Finding Forever


• Make It Rain
Fat Joe Featuring Lil Wayne
Track from: Me, Myself & I

• Party Like A Rockstar
Shop Boyz
Track from: Rockstar Mentality

• Int'l Players Anthem (I Choose You)
UGK Featuring OutKast

• Better Than I've Ever Been
Kanye West, Nas & KRS-One

Field 7 - Rap
Category 35 - Best Rap Album
(For albums containing 51% or more playing time of VOCAL tracks.)

• Finding Forever
Common

• Kingdom Come
Jay-Z

• Hip Hop Is Dead
Nas

• T.I. vs T.I.P.
T.I.

• Graduation
Kanye West

Humble as a mumble in the jungle of shouts and screams,

That's the way the cracker crumbles so I guess I've gotta re-route my dreams....

You ever had to trust someone without a doubt? Someone that you vaguely knew and simultaneously knew all about this person? Knowing you might not feel comfortable going through but comforted with the fact of knowing they have your best intentions in their intent?

..."And that's life and that's life"

shit is crazy huh?

I guess that's what the streets want huh? lol




I'm wild just like a rock, a stone, a tree
And I'm free, just like the wind the breeze that blows
And I flow, just like a brook, a stream, the rain
And I fly, just like a bird up in the sky
And I'll surely die, just like a flower plucked
And dragged away and thrown away
And then 1 day it turns to clay
It blows away, it finds a ray, it finds its way
And there it lays until the rain and sun
Then I breathe, just like the wind the breeze that blows
And I grow, just like a baby breastfeeding
And it's beautiful, that's life and that's life
And that's life and that's life

Somehow this song kept me going today

I'm So Hood!

"I wear my pants below my waist
And I never dance when I'm in this place
Cause you and yo' man is plannin to hate
I'm so HOOD! And I got these golds up in my mouth
If you get closer to my house
Then you'll know what I'm talkin 'bout
I'm out the HOOD! And if you feel me put your hands up
HOO-OOD! My hood niggaz can you stand up
I'm so HOOD! If you not from here you can walk it out
And you not hood if you don't know what I'm talkin 'bout"

This song gets me going at 6am...sorry to my neighbors...lol

The day after Katrina...two years later

I'm torn between being Antwone Fisher "It don't matter what you tried to do, you couldn't destroy me! I'm still standing! I'm still strong! And I always will be"

and

Veteran activist Anne Moody in her autobiography expressed this new sense of cynicism best. "We shall overcome… I WONDER. I really WONDER."

and that's all i have to say about that

Have you seen Superbad yet? It's hilarious and I almost think it's funnier than Knocked Up...yes...it's possible.

Ahhh...the 3 day weekend is almost here!!! GO Labor Day!!!!!! I feel like No One is bbqing which is RiDiculous...Ya'll should be ashamed of yourselves :::Wink:::
It's the second week of school and I am damn near exausted...even though I don't work directly with the children :::scratches head:::

Here are some pics from summer camp...in which i didn't work directly with the kids...yet I'm on a field trip with them :::does the scratching of the head exercise again::




As I am looking through this photo album I am coming across my Summer of 2007 "Party and Bullish" memories...here are a couple I'd like to share with my b.f. (This stands for BLog Family...SOl...LMAO)

Party and Bullish begins...this is what we started off with and everyone brought a bottle of a lil sumthing with them



All Ima say is...I stay on the second floor...people were out taking a smoke a talking, a couple of people leaned on the rail...and...there it went...Ground Zero



Essence is Back in da N.O!!!
We love da kids


and Common


and da food


and da P.I.M.P.s


and da outfits


and busstopping to Maze all over the Superdome "You make me Happy!"


Ahhh...one of those nights


and then...


Get IT!!


One mo fa da road


Game Night!!!


Speed!!