iFan

So I was in Walgreens looking for a mini fan and I found this!!!! LMAO cause it's really called an iFan 

I just had to pay my cell phone bill, insurance and car note today...Work ain't honest but it pays the bills

Peanut Butter, Strawberry Preservatives Time!!!

If you're not from New Orleans, you probably won't recognize the significance of the Bunny Bread, but I have been craving a peanut butter y jelly samich, so while my co-worker was "making groceries" i asked her to cop me the ingredients. Now everybody in the office wanna be down.

Slap Your Co-Worker Day is Coming!!

Slap Your Co-Worker Day is Coming!!


Tomorrow is the official Slap Your Irritating Co-workers Holiday :


Do you have a co-worker who talks nonstop about nothing, working your last nerve with tedious and boring details that you don't give a damn about? Do you have a co-worker who ALWAYS screws up stuff creating MORE work for you? Do you have a co-worker who kisses so much booty, you can look in their mouth and see what your boss had for lunch? Do you have a co-worker who is SOOO obnoxious,when he/she enters a room, everyone else clears it? Well, on behalf of IkeTurner, I am so very very glad to officially announce tomorrow as SLAP YOUR IRRITATING CO-WORKER DAY! There are the rules you must follow:

* You can only slap one person per hour - no more.
* You can slap the same person again if they irritate you again in the same day.
* You are allowed to hold someone down as other co-workers take their turns slapping the irritant.
* No weapons are allowed...other than going upside somebody's head with a stapler or a hole-puncher.
* CURSING IS MANDATORY! After you have slapped the recipient, your"assault" must be followed with something like "cause I'm sick of your stupid-a$$ always messing up stuff!"

* If questioned by a supervisor or police, (if the supervisor is the irritant), you are allowed to LIE, LIE, LIE! Now, study the rules, break out your list of folks that you want to slap the living day lights out of and get to slapping.....and have a GREAT DAY!

World Keeps Turnin'

Today someone told me I wasn't as hard as I pretended. She said this jokingly, but this isn't the first time someone has said this about me. I'm not hard, I don't pretend, I'm complex and simple all at the same time. Period.

My cuzin has left the building...walking a thousand miles ta da brown beat

I think ima go to jazz fest this weekend, it'll probably be my last, so I'll make a guest appearance

Do you think everyone knows this: http://www.sec.state.la.us/elections/elect-absentee.htm

Did you know you are eligible to vote prisoner not convicted of a felony

I started this blog about an hour ago...conclusion...Deal or No Deal can't be on while im trying to do ANYTHING...DEAL!

Hell yeah, Pratt is in Africa, Kerry Walks...ER whew!!!

Today at work i listed to Baduizm, Mama's Gun and Worldwide Underground...in that order. Baduizm...hit! Mama's Gun...HIT!!!! Worldwide Underground...took a year to fully listen to the cd...HIT!!!! 2002, My Eyes Were Green, cause i ate a lot of vegetables. I couldn't accept Erykah's ability to change her eye color on me so when i heard the 1st track to WW Underground "World Keeps Turnin" I immediately put her off as you would any friend whose growth moves at a greater pace than yours. I couldn't accept her mental and spiritual growth, so like a friend who couldn't recognize the light I strayed. While apart I went through a couple of situations that would make me able to accept change from myself as well as others...as the world turned I began to accept and become obedient to my changes, reciprocating that to every aspect in my life...including erykah....Woooooooo!!!!!! Thanks for waiting.

come & go with me, there's so much new to see

This weekend I got natural blonds jealous, my favorite cuzin flew in, blew a little hookah, visited bourbon...not the drink, saw someone from my past, had a bomb azz filet from Ruth Chris...and that was just on Friday.

wow...election; well to say the least, I didn’t vote for nagin or mitch, but ima have to make a wise choice within the next month...i need real debates to happen this month. i need concrete commitments and plans of action. i don't want a tin man new orleans, i need someone to help rebuild a new orleans with a heart and soul. i need a new orleans that offers better public education, equal housing, equal job opportunities...as Tavis Smiley would say, "i need a new orleans, as good as its promise"

i don't know why that damn school house rock episode for the preamble of the constitution is stuck in my head..."We the people of the United States, in order to form a more perfect union, establish justice, insure domestic tranquility, provide for the common defense, promote the general welfare, and secure the blessings of liberty to ourselves and our posterity, do ordain and establish this Constitution for the United States of America"

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YEAH!!!! Covenant with Black America #1 on NY Times Bestseller List!!!!!!

If Heaven was a mile away
Would I pack up my bags and leave this world behind?

Pick up your copy of The State of Black America 2006

Other peoples pessimism towards my choices, my life, etc. piss me off, i know the difference between concern and that other bullshit

I fell in love with my ipeezy again this weekend

"why can't we just trust each other; you can't hate me and be my lover"

Thanks to okayplayer, i finally know who umi is

Peaches, I'm glad ya'll were able to make it to church, you truly inspire me

"we got arms but won't reach for the sky"...didn't get that til i was in chi

so ummm...boondocks is coming on

kweli checks his email

shot out. thanks

color blind lmao

a different kind of Easter

wow, Easter with no sunrise service :-( damn u katrina! i'm way beyond those material losses she brought with her; i'm more on those traditions…the ones you’ve been doing all ur life, you don’t know when they actually started, because they’ve just always been there. Many of these traditions have seemed to, well become non-existent since August 2005

Easter. Every year since I can remember, starts on Friday with the 7 last sayings on the cross, followed by a sleepover Saturday night at my house which is transformed into a beauty salon. No one wants to sleep on the floor so somehow we crowd into one bed...no gay ish...its all fam. We never get more than 3-4 hours of sleep that night because we had to wake up at 5 in da morning to get ready for sunrise service. We arrive for service, but somehow spend the whole service in the choir room...separating someone's staw set...lol. Remember breakfast after the service...grits (da ones where u don't need to add butter or salt), eggs, your choice of sausage, ham or bacon, fruit mix, croissant, toast...the whole nine...and it was good, cause somebody's grandma was back there cooking it! As you're eating breakfast, the first group of members trickle in, you get ready for sunday school and well...our class was different, so we always had a good time...in the Lord, of course ::wink:: so 10 o'clock service rolls around before you know it, you start to see people come in that you hadn't seen since...well, last Easter. Everybody with their sunday best. Then as the service begins that evil combination sets in: no sleep & a big breakfast = da itis. You are trying your hardest to stay up, but that damn devil is always present. I gave in to him for a good 15 minutes last year. sorry. lo siento por mi huh?

After chuch we fellowship and the conversations usually start with "where u been, i ain't seen u since..." or “ what time u goin on da lake” or most importantly "who's cooking"...cause somebody always is.

This year as we all know is just different. It's 7:50 on Easter morning and I am in my pajamas with my hair rolled up. I didn't stay up late, didn't have to wake up early, i think ima walk to starbucks for breakfast, church service doesn't start until 1:00 and it' not going to be at "2505 Marengo Street, in New Orleans" u know by the cornerstone on Ferango lol. As much as i am saddened by these things, it only a testimony...God is in control. The church is just a building, it is the people that make up the church. Even though all of these circumstances are foreign to me, this one isn't...He is Risen...how many times will we see this today? probably too many to count. But do you really know what that means? Well for me, He rose so I can be able to go through all that is against me, He rose so that my church will be rebuilt, He rose so that New Orleans will be rebuilt, He rose so that Louisiana will be rebuilt. He rose so that I don't have to walk through any of this alone. I'm not going to lie, I get weak, frustrated, and annoyed with all the situations I'm up against Everyday...but my blessing is on the Other side of through, which means I too have to suffer, but all suffering has a time limitation.

Thanks

 

what's ur addiction

Good evening, my name is Elisa, and I'm a reality tv addict. my shows of choice...america's next top model, college hill, countdown to lockdown, sweet 16, etc. my fav reality tv show of all time...making da band 2..."sarah ain't hip-hop" "you can either make the band or you could not make the band" "dey fightin" lol brings back memories...and to sum it up i watch the best week ever.

wait is this mjb on...hell yeah!!! no more drama, i love it when she does this song live...cant wait until essence!

awww sleeping late tomorrow!!! well at least til 8:30 ana has planned our weekend starting with manicures and pedicures tomorrow morn

ana's making french bread pizza but she's taking it out the oven cause it's dark and this house is HOTTTT

i wish yall could hear some of the ish that comes out of her mouth, that girl is hilarious

lol "men on film" hated it lmao

kweli posted a good blog on myspace today

oh well boondocks is on...gotta go "granddad…I mean bitches”

roadtrippinondatass

Questlove!

June, 3 2006 at The Roots and Talib Kweli/Hush/Houston TX


need i say more? roadtrippinondatass

Title:

I must admit I don't posess the skills of venus nor serena...yet! omg i can lay out on this floor right about now.

so uhhh White Teeth is really better than I thought it was going to be

i can't believe Easter is this Sunday...everything just seems so...different

sorry my blogs haven't been filled with words of deep substance, but shit is just real random this week.

have u checked out deal or no deal yet?

http://www.neworleansblack.com/vote2006/index.php
be about making a difference

dreams has the only poetry night in new orleans now

congrats...my lil cuz got in clark..."oh we got choices na huh!"

boondocks dvd comes out in june...ur favorites? the mlk one was good but the season finale had me all teary eyed, it was on point on so many different levels

i'm out of it ::passing out on da floor::

If you are worried...don't worry!

gosh i've been on that song all dizzay.

wow it's been a rough day at work, that's all ima say cause i've had my day or two.

"what club i went to with my homies...Don't worry" that's my ish

oh so i just listened to the juelz santana "what's the games been missing" its on my hot list now

arite...i'm goin get my venus/serena on

http://s42.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=1V0VHM5XLXRW23SHVDS9OFH1Q1

Once again...Blue Monday

Re: Thoughts

Mike I’m not sure if you’ll have time to read this…you’re so busy and all lol, I hope I responded according to what u were looking for

Okay, here’s the deal. People are romanticizing pre-Katrina New Orleans. Murder was at an all time high, ish was real a week before Katrina. I remember going to True Brew (a local poetry spot) and taking a moment from poetry to talk about the daily murders happening in New Orleans. Kids killing kids, parents scared of their own children, my generation turning their backs on a confused, effed up public education, survival of the fittest younger generation.
When speaking at the Voting Rally in New Orleans last week, comedian Bill Cosby brought up these issues, leaving us with a question, “What kind of village do we want back in New Orleans?”
Living in New Orleans my entire life, I have gotten to know the good, the bad and the ugly. I’ve experienced the New Orleans Public School System, otherwise known as the pipeline to the Tourism/Hospitality Industry, perpetuating low income jobs for Blacks and Browns in New Orleans, thereby leading to condensed areas in town in which these employees are living (lower 9th ward & housing projects) creating residentially segregated neighborhoods people said they didn’t know existed until Katrina. Lmao. Ha ha! Pre-Katrina, these areas of the city yielded the highest percentages of murders in New Orleans. Some people didn’t know this, but when people don’t tend to look like majority, and it doesn’t happen in the “nice” neighborhoods, these things seem to go unnoticed by society.

Upon waking up Tuesday morning and hearing that there were several breaches in the levee and all of New Orleans had to be evacuated I was numb. The only thought that was in my mind was, “this is what it takes for New Orleans not to have a murder? Katrina was the real Tide that could cleanse blood?”

So upon hearing Cosby ask this question, I immediately thought of these circumstances we were in 8 months ago. PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY!!!! I can blame “the man and his racist tactics/institutions” for so long. I grew up in the lower working class, I’m Black/Puerto Rican, I’m a woman…if we’re counting that’s three…well 2 ½ cause I’m light skinned (lol that’s a joke) But in all seriousness, I understand the odds are against me, but I had…and still have choices to make. Cosby spoke on parents who are scared of their children. My household was different, my moms…well that’s another blog, but I had a family that wasn’t afraid to discipline me when need be, but they weren’t afraid to love me either. I was living in a pre-Katrina New Orleans where babies were having babies, and clearly if this is happening there are already self esteem/body politics/self love issues going on in that household. We need to address these issues. Teen pregnancy isn’t right, but when ish happens we need to deal with it, you don’t just talk about the teen. You try to figure out the problem and help be a part of the solution. Why are we so afraid to talk to the youth??? Why are we so afraid to address the real issues in our communities??? Yeah, I know we are overrepresented in every aspect of the criminal legal system (notice the word legal and not justice) and I understand that because of a racist/capitalist society we live in a large percentage of Blacks and Browns will be born into poverty, attend a poor school system, get a low wage job with little or no benefits and be subject to prejudice by gender, class and race by all of society, including ones who look just like yourself! PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY!!!!

ACCOUNTABILITY. Just as well as anyone brings up points/constructive criticism about a problem, they are held accountable for what they are willing to do to help. I’m not saying that Cosby is right in everything he says…Brown v. Board speech, once again…another blog. I do believe that was the time and place for those issues to be said…why??? Because clearly they weren’t being addressed anywhere else, we seemed to have forgotten about the pre-Katrina New Orleans. But we have to recognize the media has a way of having a Willie Lynch syndrome towards our issues. http://www.thetalkingdrum.com/wil.html

What type of village do I want back? Well I’m a realist, so I am not expecting a utopia, but I am expecting people to use Katrina as a wake up call. You can’t have an individualistic approach to anything; your community is what you allow it to be. Hate to use this cliché but if you’re not part of the solution, you’re part of the problem. Cosby…well I think he is giving money to the HBCU’s in N.O. that were damaged by Katrina, but that’s his way. Me…well I’ve always worked with the youth (that’s why so many youngins are on my myspace page lol) I don’t want to see them making the same dumb ass mistakes I had to learn from, I’ve learned that education are my tools that will take down the master’s house. You…well, you’re the only person who can decide that, but if you recognize there is a problem, you will be held accountable for your actions towards a solution.

things that make me smile

 

leading single for elisa's soundtrack 4/7/2006

I don’t wanna write this down, [world... premiere]
I wanna tell you how I feel right now [world... premiere]
I don’t wanna take no time to write this down, [world... premiere]
I wanna tell you how I feel right now, hey [world... premiere]

Tomorrow may never come
For you or me
Life is not promised
Tomorrow may never show up
For you and me
This life is not promised

I ain’t no perfect man
I’m trying to do, the best that I can,
With what it is I have
I ain’t no perfect man
I’m trying to do, the best that I can,
With what it is I have

Put my heart and soul into this song [yes yes]
I hope you feel me
from where I am, to wherever you are
I mean that sincerely
Tomorrow may never come
For and me
Life is not promised
Tomorrow may never appear
You better hold this very moment very close to you [right now]
Very close to you [right now]
So close to you, so- close to you [your moment in history is right now!]
Don’t be affraid, to let it shine

My umi said shine your light on the world
Shine your light for the world to see
My abi said shine your light on the world
Shine your light for the world to see
[i want black people to be free, to be free, to be free]
My abi said shine your light on the world
[want black people to be free, to be free, to be free]
Shine your light for the world to see
[want black people to be free, to be free, to be free]
My umi said shine your light on the world
[want black people to be free, to be free, to be free]
Shine your light for the world to see
[want black people to be free, to be free...]

Sometimes I get discouraged
I look around and, things are so weak
People are so weak
Sometimes,
Sometimes I feel like crying
Sometimes my heart gets heavy
Sometimes I just want to leave and fly away [fly fly fly, like a dove]
Sometimes I don’t know what to do with myself [ow!]
Passion takes over me
I feel like a man
Going insane
Losing my brain
Trying to maintain
Doing my thang
Hey hey hey hey hey
Put my heart and soul into this y’all
I hope you feel me
Where I am, to wherever you are [ha ha ha ha]
Sometimes I don’t want to be bothered
Sometimes I just want a quiet life, with
Me and my babies, me and my lady
Sometimes I don’t want to get into no war
[black people to be free, to be free...]
Sometimes I don’t wanna be a soldier
Sometimes I just wanna be a man, but

Umi said shine your light on the world
Shine your light for the world to see
My abi said shine your light on the world
Shine your light for the world to see
[i want black people to be free, to be free, to be free]
My dreamers said shine your light on the world
[want black people to be free, to be free, to be free]
Shine your light for the world to see
[want black people]
My elders said shine your light on the world [hey hey]
Shine your light for the world to see

I want black people to be free, to be free, to be free
All my people to be free, to be free, to be free
Oh black people to be free, to be free, to be free
Oh black people to be free, to be free, to be free

That’s all that matters to me

Black people unite and let’s all get down
Gotta have what,
Gotta have that love
Peace and understanding
One god, one light
One man, one voice, one mic
Black people unite come on and do it right
Black people unite come on and do it right
Black people unite come on and get down
Gotta have what,
Love, peace and understanding
One god, one voice, one life
One man, gon’ shine my light
Black people unite, now hop up and do it right
Black people unite, now come on and do it right
Yeah baby that’s what I like
Yeah baby that’s what I like
Yeah baby that’s what I like...
[black people, my people....]

I've deleted this post over 4 times so I don't really think I want to write but...

Moms called. didn't answer. didn't have my ringer on...matter of fact several people called. christina's in the hospital, gallstones again. it's a routine 2 part surgery; first they remove the stones, then the gallbladder. She's going to be okay, I've been assured of this. But her...she has some understanding to do.

This is the first and last convo I will have about this on my blog...just gotta get it out I guess. I don't have the daddy issues, didn't know him to long enough to have them. "pops died, didn't cry, didn't know him that well" but moms was always there, not in that clair huxtable, brady bunch, loving moms sort of way. She was there in a way which made love hard to learn. Eventually I learned to love...but not from her. Learned to trust...but not from her. Learned self esteem...but not from her. I would love to say that my mom and I are tighter than bush and bin ladin, but that would be a wack nigga quote, and that's just not me. I spent years blaming her for my unhappiness but as common says "I couldn't play the hood forever" I had to take responsibility and accountability of my own actions in order to truly love/live MY life to the fullest.

So why do I constantly get upset at things she does? Because it hurts when you want someone to love them self as much as you love them. You see potential in someone even when they can't see it themselves. You value life but you know that it has an unexpected expiration date. You know that heaven is real, but hell is too. You know the wages of sin is death...that's it. I want a mom that I can have late night conversations with, seek the advise of, say "I love you" and not get an awkward look afterwards, but I don't...at least right now. I'm ready for a relationship with you, but more importantly I want you to have a relationship with God like no other. You aren't getting any younger, your health is fading, troubles have burdened you, Katrina has moved you, but not closer to God. Give up the flesh cause it's weak. Give up the flesh because, after all, it's not yours to begin with. Give up the flesh because the spirit is seeking to have a conversation with your soul. Turn up the ringer and answer...God is calling for you.

Where's my shipment???

If my boss asks me about this one more time ima scream...at customs!

she reminds me of the episode of Family Guy when Brian owed Stewie money and Stewie kept asking him "Where's my money, huh Brian, u got it now? u have $2.99 to spend on a fake moustache but you can't pay me my money" lol

part dos

so the conversation ended as soon as i published my post.

NOOOO! my boss cornered me in my office and had a conversation at me...that's right, at me about V for Vendetta...(mike, do u have a link to the comic?) she told me that the movie was "very good yet very simple"...crickets sound...no comment, then she proceeded to rant and rave over Inside Man. All I gotta say is, ya'll need to get on that Narnia (sp?) I'm not one for "those types" of movies but it was on point. I even got one of my coworkers to see it when it was still at the show, so all day we were talking in an english accent, "Peter, Beaver, Asland" lmao

Jed, keep ya head up. Shit is real weird. we always knew we were going to college and we always knew we were going to graduate...one day lol. I think ima read that Cosby book So you've graduated...now what? exactly...now what? what do you want to do and how do you get there? it's just that simple. but when you enter self into that equation that's when shit gets difficult. self told me I needed to sit out because I was stressed out, though circumstances were beyond my control I am out for two years. Choices, we all have them. Think...then proceed to make the wisest ones. Shit, I am not gonna lie, Chicago scares and encourages me at the same time. On my first trip to Chicago one of the ladies in the Urban League had me doubting myself as she asked me if I knew anyone in Chicago and as I told her no she kind of chastised me for leaving my family. I cried because I thought she was right. For the first time in my life I wouldn't be remotely close to any of my family members. I started to rethink my choices and thought about staying in New Orleans for my MA but then I found out the only ma program I was interested in doesn't exist anymore. lol God has a way of showing you He's still in control. During my trip I visited U of Chi and fell in love with it. I ended up spending the whole day there meeting with the dean and professors in my program, keeping in touch with them until this day. Rachel has provided me with numerous contacts that seem more than willing to help me with my transition, thanks. In all, I am accountable for "my part" but always remember, "Thy will be done" Obedience is key, but knowledge is the lock.


My Ivory, I'm listening to Law & Order and I keep hearing them mention Costa Rica. I have to get another passport...looters stole mine...lo siento por mi huh? My coworker Soledad jokes about u everyday, everything I say about my friend she's always like "who, ur lova...john" that b don't know nothing about us. ebony and ivory...my bad barcardi and cola love always. Oh u were right, I really think Big Boi and Andre 3000 used us, cause from the email I sent, u were the only one that replied. Damn, lately I've been reminiscing like crazy. Somebody was canopy jumping on tv and u know I was stunting like, "oh that ain't nothing, I did that plus the mariposa...how bout those beans (black and daily)" lol. As I was watching the season finale to Sex in the City for the umpteenth time, I thought about doing a France program but then I thought I don't no, no french. at least I could swing some espanol, but french...naww that's okay.

new orleans might file for bankruptcy...gotta watch the news

until...

had a spark when i started now it's just...

Ummm so the title of this blog was about to be "Bitch, I'm about to be broke" but...well, lets see where this takes me.

I can't go to another mall for at least 2 months...well 1. I say that but then I actually think about how much money I really spend and it's not really that much. I don't mean to justify but I work hard...well i work, get a decent salary, pay my bills, pay myself and pay my savings account. So I think I deserve a splurge or three.

"I wish I had more time" -Denzel

I went to Chicago a couple of months ago to work out some logistics on my move and it just so happened Common had a concert that week ::BIG WINK:: so everyone who knew i was going was constantly asking who i was going with and was stunned when i told them, Elisa. When i was younger...lol...I thought i needed at least one person to be around me at all times. I didn't feel comfortable in myself to just BE with myself. I went through some unnecessary bullshit due to those circumstances, but that's another blog. The fact is I had the best time at that concert. I ended up in the first row and met this couple who was from New Orleans. They were so cool and the trip part is me and the girl kinda looked alike. We ended up vibing the whole night...well us and the asian kid who knew ALL the hip hop songs the dj was playing. At the end of the concert we exchanged cards and parted ways promising to keep in touch. So I don't know what kind of chemical reaction the guy's card had to my jeans but when i pulled it out to wash the only thing i could see was his name: David. phone number...gone...email...gone...damn, i can't even google him cause his last name was gone. Oh well, i had a cool time, knowing my luck i will run into them in august.

A month before this i went to chicago with a "friend" and enjoyed chicago through his eyes. this time around i got to know windy personally. she's a real cool chick. i hope she shows me the same love when i come back. (i wish i could insert kanye and j. legend's "home" here)



jed okay...r u ready...a bird with $10 told me that u were coming to vote and ur daddy's b day...that's it.

damn...why is sprint so high???? why is my bill $90

songs that make me smile:
Intro to Be
Get By
Bitch I'm Broke...I gotta get this one out of my head, cause I think people heard it from my office today
U Got Me (live or recorded...this song goes off either way)


"black men walking with white girls on their arms, i be mad at them as if i knew their moms" i still got issues with this...idunnno, i try to practice my sociologist theories and all but uh...i'm still a work in progress...just call me roots, i'm a whole miniseries

arite i this debate in my house is going off, ima be back

Here it is a cool, slightly transformed, just a little break from the norm...

I have to start taking my camera with me from now on. See there's this man who walks down Magazine St...not walking dogs...but 2 miniature ponies. I've seen this 3 times, yet I don't think people will believe me when I tell them. No...really...2 miniature ponies.

Oh yeah, thanks Chidi, I'm on that new Busta Rhymes song hard. I've put it in my ipod and have been bumping it in my car the last couple of days. Ur waiting for the summertime...well it'll be 85 degrees on Friday, plus I've heard the fresh prince's new definition of summer madness, summer, summer, summertime. So i think my summer has already begun. All I need now is for somebody to start selling frozen cups out of their house for a quarter and it's on!

Hey Jedi, Wednesday's almost here!!!! don't call me today!

Omg these nutri grain cereal bars are shrinking.

Like the ponies, this entry will be miniature...gotta get dressed and get to work.

damn 2 random blogs in a row

"where has my 24th hour gone" (singing to the tune of "where have all the cowboys gone?" lol

gosh i was suppose to wake up at 6 to walk and hour then get ready for work. Instead I am under the dryer at 7:24 blogging making a list of things I have to do before I go in today.

I did a massive amount of retail therapy yesterday :-) ....after church. I'm so glad we're going to have an Easter service in New Orleans. Driving to Baton Rouge every Sunday is a testimony.

Hey Jed, I know a secret...want a hint...okay, it involves a 45 min trip, don't worry I'm not gonna tell.

Oh and ur little sister, another priceless moment. We're in Baskin Robbins and she decides she wanted to pay for the ice cream (home girl is real smart though, because every time we go out to eat...everyday...she leaves her purse in my car..lol) so she's all "i got this" she reaches in her pocket and is like "oh i can't use my new ten, never mind could u get this" lmao

Someone has challenged me to think though i didn't recognize it for what it was worth until yesterday

OMG deal or no deal, that ish is addictive

Inside Man was alright...it kinda reminded me of 16 Blocks...I thought Mos was good in this

Shhh don't tell anyone but I might see Take the Lead this weekend...something light for the mind

"ima be late though, i gotta figure out what im gonna wear" kanye

some random blog

Okay my venting is over. I think I'm blogging too much today; well I'll justify it someway by not writing for the rest of the week. I just had a good conversation with family...wow I really have a lot to learn.

Ever had a day where you realize you have truly forgiven somebody? I have. It didn't come easy, but it came.

I've influenced someone to see V for Vendetta; I don't want to have a conversation with them about it though.

I told someone I have been real lazy lately...they told me it was post dramatic stress...I told them I was just being lazy

I think I'm going to delete my last blog...I googled something and someone's blog came up

I will start walking again this week

This has turned into some random blog

I never knew people REALLY listen to A LOT of things I say...grown woman shit...random shit...race stuff "These days I'm learning that words got power so I'ma be specific" -kweli

I influenced someone to get a blog last week

I'ma influence someone to join the book club this week ::wink:: j ta da e-d

I finally saw Rachel today...for those who don't know, I think this woman single handedly changed my life. She was one of my Sociology teachers, but I met her about a year before I took her class. I was working in a Black art gallery during my junior? year in college. She comes in the store browsing and really spending time looking at the artwork. She purchases a couple of pieces and we began talking. Disclaimer::::I don't do small talk very well:::: I ask her about her interests in the pictures she chose. I thought she was going to tell me that she was buying the pics because they "went with" something in her house. But naw...she was on some real deal stuff. We talked about some race issues and I could tell she was the realness. She told me she taught at my university and that I should check out her class sometime. I eventually took her Racial Issues class...whew that class wasn't a breeze, but it challenged me to the fullest, the work was demanding but manageable
the hardest thing was understanding some of the people in our class and also realizing some prejudices I had. My point is...Rachel is a damn good teacher/mentor I'm glad to have met her

"Thy will be done" -God constantly realizing what this means

Okay daylight savings time has crept up on me once again so I have to shut it down

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"Going Hard" -Kweli

I wanted to make a difference so I got up turned off the computer got dressed and joined the revolution...stay tuned to your local news station...I think it will be televised.

Friday Night Lights....April Fools

  

How long will they morn ya?

64 year old Robert Davis, was beaten beyond recognition in the French Quarters 2 1/2 months after Katrina. Davis, a Black man was looking to buy a pack of cigarettes before 4 white NOPD officers beat him to the ground to handcuff him. Classic case huh? Here's the uh-ha! moment. This was all caught on tape. A grand jury had indicted these officers in this incident. Kind of funny that in EVERY single report I hear about this case, racism isn't even mentioned in the disclaimer. This case is being treated as if it isn't a systematic abuse of power within the institution of the criminal legal system...makes me wonder if they still think about Levon Jones? http://brownwatch.squarespace.com/to-the-present/2005/2/25/death-of-levon-jones-stokes-racial-tension-in-new-orleans-black-leaders-call-for-boycott.html

Roll Call

March 29, 2006
NAACP Continues to Call on Louisiana to Postpone New Orleans Election Until Improved Voting Procedures Are Implemented
President Bruce S. Gordon schedules meeting with Louisiana Secretary of State to express concerns on behalf of displaced New Orleans voters and will march in April 1 New Orleans voting demonstration

NAACP President Bruce S. Gordon said today the election scheduled for April 22 in New Orleans should be postponed until the state of Louisiana devises a plan for implementing effective absentee ballot measures and allows satellite voting from states with large concentrations of displaced New Orleans residents.

Gordon said: “To hold the New Orleans election on April 22 would violate the Voting Rights Act of 1965 and disenfranchise thousands of voters forced to evacuate their homes because of Hurricane Katrina. If provisions can be made to allow Iraqi and Mexican expatriates to vote in their national elections then surely we can do no less for American citizens forced to relocate through no fault of their own.”

Despite claims by Louisiana Secretary of State Al Ater that adequate steps have been taken to give displaced voters the opportunity to cast their ballots, the NAACP is concerned that because many voters have moved several times since the hurricane struck August 29, 2005, they will not receive word about polling stations and absentee ballot information. According to one published report, fewer than 10,000 registered voters have requested absentee ballots.

The NAACP, with assistance from People for the American Way Foundation, has opened 14 Voter Assistance Centers in states such as Texas, Georgia, Illinois, Mississippi and Alabama. New Orleans voters may call the special NAACP voter hotline, 1-866-OUR-VOTE (1-866-687-8683) for additional information. The hotline was set up in partnership with People for the American Way Foundation and the Lawyers' Committee for Civil Rights Under Law.

Gordon will join other civil rights and political leaders at a rally at 9 a.m. Saturday, April 1 at the Convention Center parking lot in New Orleans. The rally will be followed by a march from the Convention Center to the Crescent City Connection Bridge. This will be followed by a press conference at 2 p.m.

Founded in 1909, the NAACP is the nation’s oldest and largest civil rights organization. Its members throughout the United States and the world are the premier advocates for civil rights in their communities, conducting voter mobilization and monitoring equal opportunity in the public and private sectors.

Love song

Oh gosh, here we go again. I paid my first car note today, last payment...sometime in 2012...:-( I have to get used to this again.

I've been listening to Jean Grae's Lovesong all day "And it's not what he tells her, man, it's what he don't, And she don't understand and for some years, she probly won't" Wow, just been getting over a situation. Discernment is something huh? I've learned over the years that too many people involved in your business doen't make it your business anymore, so I'm not talking bout the he said/she said stuff. I really think, scratch that, I really KNOW God gives us signs about people, that extra sense that we fail to recognize that could make all the difference in the world...enough of this love song:
"Maybe it's easier to talk about this shit in third person
Learning better
Looking for love in all the wrong places
Like I'm Eddie Murphy
Curse me to repeat the same cycle
I'm breaking
No longer think relations make a better woman
Just for life, I'm pursuing
Growing, but hopelessly romantic still
Tasted weather in the bitter climates
Love the sunshine better
Dreaming of dream proposals
Decent moral values placing higher on my chart
Trying not to have a shallow heart
But battle scars are deep and reaching to the depth of hell and back
Try to give up the grudges
Think it's experience and move from the clutches of sadness
It's difficult
Sometimes I wish I wasn't an adult
Adolescent primetime sitcom star
I've been too far and too much, too hard, for too long
It's still a love song"

Okay, when I started this blog, I really thought my cuz and a few self selected others were the only ones reading this...lol

i have to get back to work now, i've been trying this new thing of staying at work until 5, i can get extra work in but when i'm there i always feel like there is something better i could be doing.

Costa Rica...was that really 2004????

wow a year ago?

In discussing his white privilege, Robert Jensen makes the point, “We all are the product of both what we will ourselves to be and what the society in which we live lets us be” (Jensen 105). By the recognizing that institutional racism exists is an admission that the accessibility of social mobility and success is not equal to all races. It is also apparent that each of the institutions collude with each other to reinforce institutionalized racism. While it has been proved that residential segregation has so many other effects on the Black life; the federal government has placed a high, “emphasis on personal responsibility, not inequalities in the larger society” (Wilson 331). But, when using the structural approach to understand why Blacks systematically achieve and obtain less than Whites, the answer is often color-based in a self proclaimed color-blind society. Blacks achieve less because of the mere fact that they are Black. As a society that has a recognizes privileges of being White, there is also a recognized disadvantages of being Black.

I'm Bossy!!!!!

Wow, 25!!!! Lol, what a year.

March 27, 2005.

Easter Sunday. My roommate surprises me with a spread of gifts/treats in the dining room. So thoughtful...this was a thoughtful birthday. My BFF calls me to sing her usual rendition of the "Happy Birthday" song. (side note, why has no one at my job ever heard the verse, "may the dear Lord bless you" they told me it was a Black thing...I believe them"

I get dressed for church, good sermon. Take a couple of pictures and head to Houston's for lunch, movie...Cheesecake Bistro (the Bistro) for dessert. LOL Ana made me a Beautifully Human card...I chuckled, it was cute :)

Don't really remember much else...


March 27, 2006

GRADUATION!!!! Puerto Rico!!! Decent job...not career...job (oh lord, please don't let me be misunderstood) Katrina...Georgia...Houston...New Orleans...Chicago...New Orleans.

25 wow. Preparing for the GRE before October...it changes once again ;-( Want to receive my MA from Univ. of Chicago. PhD...Well let's get through this first. Finally attended a State of the Black Union. I love Black people, I didn't just get this feeling, I just feel like I have to say this aloud sometimes.

Been to some of my best concerts this year (common, j legend, kweli, j grae).

Don't know the future of New Orleans, but it needs Essence back next year! I'll be in H-town this year though.

25....sorry to anyone who has called and has gotten, "you have reached 504-..."

August is getting here sooner than I though, procrastination is a thief of time, I need to charge this criminal with a crime and start with my rehabilitation program.

Happy Birthday to Me!!!!!

well not until 8:26 in the morning....

what a year...even though i am back in new orleans for the time my life has gone (?) full circle, blog on it tomorrow.

anyone out there

jed...anyone out there, i need help with my ipod...can i add songs/videos from a computer other than my own?

how can i transfer pics from my digital camera to the ipod????

need help...please comment...please

Thanks cuz!!!! ur my favorite now!!!!!!

Thanks cuz, I owe you one...well a couple...lol.

I love this pic. I took this a couple of weeks ago in the Chi.

LOL, this morning I had to bring my lil cuz to school. We walk outside and I see a flat tire...oh no...well not really in an upset tone, but I turned and proceeded to call GEICO to make good on their roadside assistance deal. Wow, I didn't know pop-a-lock changed tires? learn something new everyday...huh?

One thing people don't know about New Orleans right now, is that business is booming for tire companies...nails and debris is still EVERYWHERE and our tires are suffering. I brought my cuz to see my aunt's house last night. It used to be a 2 story house but an oak tree from their backyard fell on the house and well...one story it is now...and they were in it when it happened! Anyways my unc. had a FEMA trailer set up in front of their house. Wow my first time in a FEMA trailer. I wish I had my camera with me last night. The trailer is made to house 5 people, though many would agree, one could barely live in there comfortably. It's funny because the whole time we were there, I kept thinking about that GEICO commercial "THE HOUSE WAS BUILT TOO SMALL" I'm blessed. I joke about this trailer, but the facts are these trailers have become HOMES to many of our residents in the GNO area. And NO EVERYONE who NEEDS a trailer has received one...enough on that.

In all, I think I got a nail in my tire last night and that's why it was flat today.

Long meetings at work today...loll. MY CEO is one of the funniest people I know. I don’t' think she realizes that though. She's a tough woman. I laugh every time I think about my interview with her (this was only 8 months ago). I had just graduated and was leaving for Puerto Rico the next day. I had already had my interview with my g.m. and now the ceo wanted to meet me. I went to her office and sat behind a table; she was sitting in this big mahogany leather chair and turned around slowly after I sat down. LOL. She began to ask me about myself, and i tell ya i was sooo intimidated by her voice she told me to take a couple of deep breaths. The interview went good, we somehow ended up talking about Sex in the City and then she offered me the position. Well 8 months later she amazes me. Katrina changed our relationship. I really got to know who she was, respecting her for what she has been able to do as a person and with her company but being able to critique aspects about my job and the company to increase profitability for both of us. It just sucks sometimes that since I am the youngest person there, she respects my opinion but sometimes pulls a motherly type role on me...alright i am babbling on so im bout to peace out

Ahhhhh

Don't go talkin that shit Badu, Badu

"What good do your words do
If they can´t understand you
Don´t go talkin´ that shit Badu, Badu"

no really...what good are they???

If you didn't catch The Boondocks tonight, you missed a REALLY good episode!!!!! It was the last for the first season. Hope the dvd is out soon.

Started preparing myself for the GRE, "that's all i have...ain't got no more"

I'm back on Mama's Gun...never really been off, so listen with me while i.....

"Time´s a wastin
Don´t you take your time young man
Keep on driftin and
Ain´t no tellin where you´ll land

Run baby, run, run
Where you runnin to?
And who you runnin from?
Some people may not understand
What it means to be a man
Takin´ full command
Cause we´re

Livin in a world that´s oh so strange
Boy don´t let your focus change
Takin out the demons in your range, hey
Livin in a world that´s oh so fast
Gotta make your money last
Learn from the past, oh

Time´s a wastin
Don´t you take your time young man
Keep on driftin and
Ain´t no tellin where you´ll land

Sweet love and sunshine
If it´s all in the air
Then it´s all on your mind
Breathe baby
Come back to the world
Dig up all your pearls
Teach the boys and girls, hey

Livin in a world that´s oh so strange
Boy don´t let your focus change
Takin out the demons in your range, hey
Livin in a world that´s oh so fast
Gotta make your money last
Learn from the past, oh

Oh baby we need to smile
Oh baby we need to smile
Oh baby we need to smile
Oh baby we need to smile

Time´s a wastin
Don´t you take your time young man
Keep on driftin and
Ain´t no tellin where you´ll land

Oh baby we need to smile
Oh baby we need to smile
Oh baby we need to smile
Oh baby we need to smile

Oh, oh, oh, oh...

Time´s a wastin
Don´t you take your time young man
Keep on driftin and
Ain´t no tellin where you´ll land

Ain´t no tellin, oh, oh..."

V for Vendetta

get up on it and holla after a couple of days...it'll take you that long

THINK

Wow, this week has gone by so fast...well these 3 months have just flown by. It's a trip because in 5 months I'll be starting all over again. :::)

my cuz was accepted into Loyola, yeah!!!! I'm proud of all my lil ones. Your foundation is almost complete; you've been given the necessary tools to begin your house. It can be as big as you dream or a one room shack...Katrinas, Ivans, Georges and Cindy are bound to happen, its inevitable but the true test is how you choose to handle them. Words of wisdom...give it up and be obedient...trust me.

Anyways, wow has it really been 3 years we've been looking for weapons of mass destruction??? ER was real good last night

Since the State of the Black Union, I have been thinking about something Harry Belafonte said about Min. Farrakhan. Of course I am paraphrasing, Belafonte was commenting on Farrakhan’s statements of not trusting a gov't who has never fulfilled a promise it has given to Black America. Farrakhan suggested using tax dollars allocated to public schools and build our own. Basically doing for ourselves, never depending on the gov't because we constantly are let down. Belafonte agreed with the views Farrakhan had of the gov't but felt that he still had faith in a democracy he and others fought long and hard to be a part of. But the thing that I've been having on my mind is when Belafonte expressed that he doesn’t agree with everything (and some days nothing that Farrakhan) is saying, but Farrakhan makes him THINK.

That's deep. We are living in a reaction world where thinking has somehow subtracted itself from the equation. My boss is constantly asking me to make decisions in a split second and she is frustrated when I say I need time to THINK things through. I have lived some part of my adult life without THINKING situations though, because if I did think some things through, I wouldn't have had to go through some real shit in my life...unnecessary shit. THINK. WORDS. POWER. LIBERATION. LIFE. LIVE. FREE. Kweli says "I'm learning words got power, so ima be specific" THINK about shit. you see shit on t.v. hear shit on the radio...believe none of what you see and none of what you hear. Do your own research. Read a damn book or two. Have a conversation and don't invite ignorance. Challenge the norm, go against the grain for what you believe in. Get to KNOW YOURSELF. Have an opinion. Know when its necessary to voice it. Know when its necessary to let fools argue amongst themselves.

and im out

wheres my snares

I can't study in my house!!!!! It's no ones fault but my own. I have to to put myself in an environment that will allow me to study and that will also my my studying EFFECTIVE!!!!!!

Enough of that, damn even the postman told me he thought i quit my job, damn man, can i leave early a for a couple of days to get my mind right...o i guess i can't

my ivory, whats up???? i thought you were gonna call me yesterday to discuss the sopros...you are so silly. the girl at work thinks we are lovas...lol if she only knew...we are...lmao with our made in costa rica baby

floetry is coming to the hob in new orleans, not really sure if i want to go. don't really have anyone to go with, all of my friends down here are lame. well except my cuz. haha

i saw the funniest bumper sticker yesterday it had a black background and there was this big F in white letters and under in small print it said "the president"
i think i get seriously pissed when i see those W bumper stickers on cars everywhere but on the bumper, but what else can i expect from the people who voted for an ass??? damn patriot act

meet the press was pretty decent this week. discussion was on south dakotas ruling on abortion, how it is only legal in cases where the mother's life in danger. Thats some bullshit. Not even in cases of incest or rape... that's really some bullshit. As a woman i don't think anybody especially the government should be able to dictate what i can or cant do with my body. No, i don't think that abortion should be used as a form of birth control, but in how many cases is this really the case????? Yes, I think that conseling should be a requirement for any person thinking of and who has had this procedure. I feel that other options such as adoption should be offered or explored for the mother. I am pro-choice, that is the way i live my life, to be able to have a choice to choose between but knowing that there are consequences for some of the choices I CHOOSE to make.

check out mtvu.com there was a real tight documentary shown on mtv the other night about the sudan, with insights on the refugee camps and the genocide that is going on there.

arite i gotta take my lil cuz to get dinner.

Playa why u hatin????

wow we actually got in town early enough for me to take a nap...i gotta pause to listen to this dwele song...it was cool.

random thoughts....

jill scott's first cd was the shit...hands down, every song on that joint is tight

not trying to make light of the subject at all but why is the last name of the bouncer in the nyc student death littlejohn?

i am on that kelis bossy song hard now

so why does it seem like jetblue prices are higher now...thats why im bout kayak

i'm interested in the black/white show but it really pisses me off to hear white people say the shit we actually know...realizing white priviledge is the first step

why did i buy i bed from ikea 6 months ago but it still hasnt been put together yet

i need to find my credit ticket for delta

what's the deal with priceline...i just cant get with the info being withheld until payment is received

forgot my digital camera somewhere in houston so i brought one of those kodak disposable cameras but i think i lost that too :::insert a sad face:::

did the sour deal with dubai show us that democracy is real?

who the hell watches that flava flav show...really??? why???

remember that 3 6 mafia song with the hot boys...playa why u hatin??

are you seriously still running for mayor kimberely williamson butler??? fresh out the joint compairing yourself to king and rosa parks??? come on now

okay gotta get to bed thought the nap did it but it was just a tease...holla

Woke up this morning...(sopranos them song) arite tony

I must make time to sit, think and write. For the last year I haven't had time to catch my breath without the next being a bit early but lately I haven't been as busy but still use that same excuse, maybe i just don't want to make time.

I find myself content with hanging with myself (that phase just doesn't look right) but thats just how i feel. The bi-weekly conversations with friends are cool, the bi-monthly catch ups with others are okay, but it seems like i am the only one content with that amount of interaction. I don't know, i hate to keep blaming things on katrina, but its true, living in a post-katrina world...well a post-katrina new orleans left me kinda detached to a whole lot of things. It brought me closer to family and with that i tend to not be caught up/in unecessary bullshit (but when is bullshit ever necessary???) don't know how to explain it cause i tried before but i'll try again for good. i'm happy, uncertain about tomorrow but i know that God will provide me with the necessary tools to face it, disguisted with the government, local, state and national because shit ain't right, and its been this way for a long time, katrina exposed a lot of -isms that "We the people of the United States, in order to form a more perfect union, establish justice, insure domestic tranquility, provide for the common defense, promote the GENERAL welfare and secure the blessing of LIBERTY for ourselves and our prosperity, do ordain and establish this constitution for the UNITED STATES of AMERICA" chose to see and neglect everyday. But you know our worldly motto "out of sight out of mind" I am tired of even explaining this, i gotta get a hobby. i was suppose to try out the pottery class but never followed up on that.

I too was addicted to Project Runway. Santino was the shiznit. oh an when i found out his mother was another...sister! OMG he was so funny when he imitated Tim "where's andrae" lol oh and when they played andrae's breakdown. that shit was soooo funny. but back to santino, he really reminds me of my ivory, not that he looks like him or anything, its just that sarcastic shit that gets me...in a good way. i think all of my friends are sarcastic???? maybe i am tooo, u think???? awww i don't

Oh gosh, I'm about to be......25 in 16 days!!!!! a quarter century, i think i am too old to be writing a blog.

JED!!!! why are you telling me about the SOPRANOS tonight when it doesn't come on until tomorrow, uh cuz, call me at about 10:59 tomorrow...thats central time.

arite and im out

omg this is so funny i had to blog it twice

my okayplayer post

i had to blog this. this show was worth the extra post:

Omg i almost didn't make the commute from New Orleans, but after getting some knowledge of self, you know i had to make it.

1,2,3, it was Mos Def and Talib Kweli!!!!!! YEAH at first dave introduced Kweli who did a couple of songs and then brought the mighty Mos out and they rocked it.

Before intermission Dave brought out Houstons congress woman and Tavis Smiley and Cornel "Nelly" West!!!!

Intermission ends...dave does a bit, lights turn low..."My eyes are green, cause i eat a lot of vegetables, it don't have nothing to do with your new friend" Ms Badu rocked the house...no really she did!!!! After mixing Baduizm, Mamas Gun and WWUnderground, she closed with Tyrone and "F-U, get up out of my house!"

Oh but wait the party didn't end yet. Dave came back out and Ms Badu, Mighty Mos and Kweli gave respect to Jay Dilla then just chilled, freestyled and it really felt like a block party, this went on for like 45 min, i didn't want it to end. They gave a shot out to New Orleans and Houston for welcoming us in, then Mos and Kweli gave us freestyles about out gov't response to Katrina then Mos closed with Katrina Clap!!!!!

If this block party comes to your town GO SEE IT!!!!! If not you'll always have something to say like an okayplayer hater, lol. Naw for real the amount of fun i had exceded the amount it cost for those tickets.

My favorite m.c.!!!!!!!!!

My eyes are wide shut right now

i got up at 5 this morning, why???? shit i don't know.

hey i hope you're reading this cause i kinda wanna be childish without any reason that i care to give. i know you already know, so why do we keep bullshitting. well not me, but you. yeah i know, i cant deal with it...kinda fuck'd up but thats life. so lets just hope you're blogging and happen to run across this one, lets just change the name of this title to closure.

omg state of the black union was so, cant find a word, dont really want to define it as one word, but it made me walk away feeling...inspired, proud walked away with a lot to think and act on

this subject deserves a decent blog so i must get some sleep and start again tomorrow

Just call me willy wonka...

cause i got my golden ticket (watch out niggan, my bad nagin)!!!!! well...pending jed's confirmation ::wink::

dave chappelle block party here we come. i don't actually know what it is we are going to: stand up, concert, both? but i know then joints cost us 55 dolares en espanol. we saw dave like 2 years ago? that dude was so funny, no seriously from the opening act to the end of dave's set i was crying laughing.

so much to do at work yet i feel like im not accomplishing anything. plus im about to miss 3 days plus mardi gras...yeah but no cause ima have piles of shit to do when i get back from my mini vacat. i think im oprah, but my bank acct doesn't reflect her #'s...shit probably not even her interests. oh well

went to sweet fire & ice...okay, not one for the cheesecake scoops though

remember when cash money was local and they were beefin with big boy (pnc)? member when 400 degrees came out for the 2nd time but we were bumpin dat back dat ass up and juvenile on fire...we were listening to that yesterday, now i know as a sociologist and feminist im not suppose to be on that, but i tell u like i told my black women and violence class "i try to live my life as personal as political but sometimes the beat be callin me, i ain't gonna lie get low is one of my fav. songs and i on the window to the wall when that joint comes on"

peace i gotta get under this dryer i nicknamed hell

Yeah I got my car!!!!!

finally got my car...trini thought she had me...but naw i gots a highlander (thanks jed for the advise) Thank you Lord!!!!

Niggers Are Scared of Revolution

Niggers Are Scared of Revolution

Niggers are scared of revolution
But niggers shouldn't be scared of revolution
Because revolution is nothing but change
And all niggers do is change

Niggers come in from work and change into pimping clothes
And hit the streets to make some quick change
Niggers change their hair from black to red to blond
And hope like hell their looks will change

Nigger kill other niggers
Just because one didn't receive the correct change
Niggers change from men to women, from women to men
Niggers change, change, change

You hear niggers say
Things are changing? Things are changing?
Yeah, things are changing
Niggers change into 'Black' nigger things
Black nigger things that go through all kinds of changes
The change in the day that makes them rant and rave
Black Power! Black Power!
And the change that comes over them at night, as they sigh and moan:
White thighs, ooh, white thighs
Niggers always goin' through bullshit change
But when it comes for real change
Niggers are scared of revolution

Niggers are actors, niggers are actors
Niggers act like they are in a hurry
To catch the first act of the 'Great White Hope

Niggers try to act like Malcolm
And when the white man doesn't react
Toward them like he did Malcolm
Niggers want to act violently

Niggers act so coooool and slick
Causing white people to say:
What makes you niggers act like that?
Niggers act like you ain't never seen nobody act before
But when it comes to acting out revolution
Niggers say: 'I can't dig them actions!'
Niggers are scared of revolution

Niggers are very untogether people
Niggers talk about getting high and riding around in 'els'
Niggers should get high and ride to hell
Niggers talk about pimping
Pimping that, pimping what
Pimping yours, pimping mine
Just to be pimping, is a helluva line

Niggers are very untogether people
Niggers talk about the mind
Talk about: My mind is stronger than yours
"I got that bitch's mind uptight!"
Niggers don't know a damn thing about the mind
Or they'd be right
Niggers are scared of revolution

Niggers fuck. Niggers fuck, fuck, fuck
Niggers love the word fuck
They think it's so fuckin' cute
They fuck you around
The first thing they say when they're mad: 'Fuck it'
You play a little too much with them
They say 'Fuck you'
When it's time to TCB
Niggers are somewhere fucking
Try to be nice to them, they fuck over you

Niggers don't realize while they doin' all this fucking
They're getting fucked around
And when they do realize it's too late
So niggers just get fucked up

Niggers talk about fucking
Fuckin' that, fuckin' this, fuckin' yours, fuckin' my sis
Not knowing what they're fucking for
They ain't fucking for love and appreciation
Just fucking to be fucking

Niggers fuck white thighs, black thighs, yellow thighs, brown thighs
Niggers fuck ankles when they run out of thighs
Niggers fuck Sally, Linda, and Sue
And if you don't watch out
Niggers will fuck you!
Niggers would fuck 'Fuck' if it could be fucked
But when it comes to fucking for revolutionary causes
Niggers say 'Fuck revolution!'
Niggers are scared of revolution

Niggers are players, niggers are players, are players
Niggers play football, baseball and basketball
While the white man cuttin' off their balls

When the nigger's play ain't tight enough
To play with some black thighs
Niggers play with white thighs
To see if they still have some play left
And when there ain't no white thighs to play with
Niggers play with themselves

Niggers tell you they're ready to be liberated
But when you say 'Let's go take our liberation'
Niggers reply: 'I was just playin'
Niggers are playing with revolution and losing
Niggers are scared of revolution

Niggers do a lot of shootin'
Niggers do a lot of shootin'

Niggers shoot off at the mouth
Niggers shoot pool, niggers shoot craps
Niggers cut around the corner and shoot down the street
Niggers shoot sharp glances at white women
Niggers shoot dope into their arm

Niggers shoot guns and rifles on New Year's Eve
A new year that is coming in
The white police will do more shooting at them
Where are niggers when the revolution needs some shots!?
Yeah, you know. Niggers are somewhere shootin' the shit
Niggers are scared of revolution

Niggers are lovers, niggers are lovers, are lovers
Niggers love to see Clark Gable
Make love to Marilyn Monroe
Niggers love to see Tarzan fuck all the natives
Niggers love to hear the Lone Ranger yell "Heigh Ho Silver!"

Niggers love commercials, niggers love commercials
Oh how niggers love commercials:
"You can take niggers out of the country, but
you can't take the country out of niggers"

Niggers are lovers, are lovers, are lovers
Niggers loved to hear Malcolm rap
But they didn't love Malcolm
Niggers love everything but themselves

But I'm a lover too, yes I'm a lover too
I love niggers, I love niggers, I love niggers

Because niggers are me
And I should only love that which is me
I love to see niggers go through changes
Love to see niggers act
Love to see niggers make them plays and shoot the shit

But there is one thing about niggers I do not love
Niggers are scared of revolution

-The Last Poets

(featured on The Boondocks)

When the revolution comes

you ever have those days where you feel like you can conquer the world but then you open the door and discover how big the world really is?

why is the revolution being televised but everyone is changing the channel?

are we past revolution and evolving into a democratic state of complacency?

yesterday after saying "no comment" to the press, dick cheney drove off but you could hear the music he was listening to, "who shot ya" by biggie? lmao...i told that to my cuz this morning

am i going to participate in the march on april 1st in new orleans with jesse jackson and al sharpton to raise awareness of the people in n.o. who want a new orleans that wants them

i will; only if they will be here after april 2nd


"When the revolution comes

When the revolution comes

some of us will catch it on TV

with chicken hanging from our mouths

you'll know it's revolution

because there won't be no commercials

when the revolution comes"

-the last poets

i cant come up with a title, title cause untitled would still be a title right?

lol my b.f.f. is the funniest person i have ever known. so i called her saturday and she told me that she was watching Oprah friday, and she spoke on how she and gayle talk every night, so she told me that if oprah talks to gayle every night i cant be busier (sp?...that just don't look right) than her. Lol. i gotta call her

why was andre 3000s flat iron wrap sooooo tight

i'm gonna go to my fav. hot spot tomorrow...barnes and noble...well i can spend hours in any bookstore.

rachel, if you are reading this, what in the hell happened to you. i refuse to email you. if u got evicted from the hotel...my bad i didn't mean to be insensitive, especially when ima need that letter of rec. pretty soon. smile

dave chappelle has been making some good p.r. moves, first Oprah then inside the actors studio. i thought both of the interviews were good in their own right. dude is the shit. funny and smart as hell.
i'm going to see his block party...that was like my ultimate concert....well let me see, my ultimate concert..

kweli, jean grae, outkast, common, john "the" legend, kanye, the fugees-pras-wycleff=ms hill, nas, hov, erykah badu, jilly from philly, shit ima be drove cause i know ima think of somebody i shouldve put on my list tomorrow

i am sitting up here thinking of things to write, thoughts aren't there, well maybe they are but some people told me they actually read this so i kinda have to let me fingers play fcc and censor what i'm thinking before it hits the screen.

so until next time

why didn't the white house leak that cheney shot his hunting partner? oh come on are you serious? enough of that...not feeling the writing or reading lately. i will start my one book a week on sunday.

driving home the other day i passed by a pottery class. i think i really want to take up pottery. my friends laughed at me but, um...i really don't care. i remember when we were younger at this summer program i took a pottery class and me and this other girl told the teacher we had taken pottery classes before just so we could get on the wheel first...of course we were lying but hey we've all seen Ghost and didn't that look cool?

valentine's day..."this is dedicated to the lover...in u"

rev. lowery is the man...this dude is so funny. :::plug:::he's gonna be at the State of the Black Union weekend

O did you hear about the Black reps walking out of the special session last night. Voting...the disenfranchisement of Black votes will be a very big issue with this mayoral election. Iraquis get to vote from Amerika. Why can't New Orleanians (sp?) vote from neighboring states due to the WORST natural disaster to EVER hit these UNITED STATES?????

enough, i gotta start working

OMG this song goes off

I must've listened to this song at least 5 times and just the first part 10 just this morning. Not that I just started listening to Mary's cd, but I had Jamie, Kanye and John in heavy rotation for about a month.

"Cause the sex was good you had my mind and I let you come back every time
you were violate & cross the line
and you knew that I would be the type to
always wait so patiently(thinking)
you was coming home to me(well)
damn I never heard the keys or
felt your tap saying are you sleep
(rewind that)
Cause the sex was good you had my mind and I let you come back every time
you were violating cross the line
and you knew that I would be the type to
always wait so patiently(thinking)
you was coming home to me(well)
damn I never heard the keys or
felt your tap saying are you sleep"

State of the Black Union 2006

lmao, did u see the mlk episode

21 questions part II...random thoughts

random thoughts/questions for 2-7-06

what's ur addiction? is is money is it clothes is is weed? i've been afflicted but not one, not two, but all three

why has that song been in my head all day

as we watch the funeral of Mrs. Coretta Scott King do we realize that we must pick up the torch and march on

why does tavis come on so damn late now

ima be pissed if j. legend don't win tomorrow

who watches that flava flav show

i ain't gonna lie i be on that nick cannon show

lmao i laugh everytime i see marion barry saying "bitch set me up"

when does the new season of def poetry start

when does the new season of the sopranos start

seinfeld is so funny. why am i just finding this out????

paul mooney been around forever and 3 days

remember that episode of good times when jay leno was on there in the clinic...the one where the girl told jj "i got an std and i got it from u"

jean grae the first time i heard "where u gonna run" when she says the rhyme about rudy huxtable "...hands in the air, knees in knees out"

i wanted clair huxtable to be my moms

my favorite episode of the cosby show is when rudy cant wear her summer dress so she goes to her room and dances and cries to ray charles singing "its not easy being green"

common introduced me to assata shakur in "a song for assata" changed my life

talib and kanye introduced me to nina simone...oh and tiffany, i used her "images" song in my body politics paper, thanks for the heads up

cola: "lets call her buffy"
barcardi "f. that, that b is the slayer"

cingular is so wrong for their internet plans

mother leaves tomorrow....lo siento por jed lol

wanda sykes show was soo funny

why are political prisoners from the civil rights movement era still in prison and/or death row

omg james baldwin's letter to angela davis "if they come for us in the morning" (i think thats the name...forgive me) is a must read by all. personal is political

why marlo really thought my name was elisa keys lol

shit i need to by the 20th ann. dvd of purple rain again...trini

i hate apple computers, i cant wait til bellsouth comes to fix the modem...where/who am i stealing this signal from

i remember watching the wiz but i don't remember any part of it...but i can sing somewhere over the rainbow

this is interesting how the older generation views the wiz vs toure

blueberry muffins from whole foods...breakfast

i wanna go to new york this year...im gonna go to ny this year

oh gosh ima be a quarter century this year

i feel like inside the actors studio now...side note i think dave chappelle will be on there this week

favorite word...hiphop

least favorite word...bush

favorite curse word...pussy (its a joke from the sopranos...pussy is so funny to say aloud...pussy...lmao)

what sound makes me happy...the intro to BE

what sound make me mad...stupidity...trust me, u have heard it too...and it pissed u off huh

"elisa this is your class, thank you for being on the actors studio"

I have looked at this blank screen for 10 min. so I guess I should write something, "Looking out on a morning rain, I used to feel so uninspired"....still do sometimes. I thought u made me feel like a natural woman, but that was me living vicariously through mary through aretha. now i feel...numb. period. nothing else. just numb. no cares if you will ever call me again. don't even remember the last time we spoke, i mean really talked to each other. each of us holding secrets scared to tell one another. but i found yours out first, allowing me the exit stratagy i'd been waiting on but i just needed the director's cue. well He told me, then showed me and left me to decide. Selfishly i decided if i couldn't have all i would take none. jessica care moore told me i was "in love with potential" and i believe her. ima email my professor before i make a final decision, i cant find her email...oh wait...here it is...www.miseducation.edu

Ms. Hill...I need ur advise

Blue Monday

I just did a pic of Annie Lee's Blue Monday...I hope it comes up (just btwn u and i, i don't think i did it right) I used to have the figurine of that painting but Trini decided she wanted it more.

Thats the way i feel today. Can't really complain about sleep cause i got my fare share yesterday.

Oh i saw that new Sanaa Lathan movie, it was good. I thought it would be pretty lame and barely touch the real issues with racism, white v.s. black as well as internalized racism, but it touched on a lot of it plus had me thinking of other things and step outside of my boundaries and look at the situation of interracial dating from another vantage point...but i am toooooo tired to even go there right now.

Awww why nacho got married and had a child...that's for my costa rican clique. but my bad let me rephrase that, who would marry nacho and have his child...what ever happened to con queso?

i hope my barcardi comes down for the summer. i promise i think he is the coolest dude ive ever met...and we are still cool. it's funny though cause i talk about him all the time and when people finally get to see a picture of him 10 times out of 10 their response is "oh, he's white" they say the same thing about my roommate (awww trini...last roommate) too. but that's a whole sociological reasoning behind that...ya'll know i'm down for that convo...pero not right now.

hey barcardi...if u are reading this Slice is open. I guess i call that our spot, and since it survived trini, i guess it's special:::wink:::

i must start preparing for the gre this week. i am looking at my calender oh 3 weeks til i'm back in chi-city (i rap with the passion of Christ nigga cross me) aw that concert is gonna be so hype i can't wait.

Blue Monday

True Brew

As I spent a night living just enough for the city of....well i thought of all the things i used to do pre-k.

True brew on friday nights was the shit. I would warm up by watching def poetry while getting ready and always arrive to a packed house. I remember the last time i went i had so much fun. The poetry that night wasn't on point as it could've been but i remember having one of the best conversations that night. just chilling in the middle of the street talkin. bout what???? everything and nothing at the same time.

awww the good old days

dave chappelle on oprah today

aw man the hype to watch oprah today is on. I have my lil ass tv on top of my cpu and at 3 it gonna be on. That sucks that this is the highlight of my week huh?

I'm on that "again" by John Legend really really hard right now. I hope he wins big at the grammy's. I don't want to sound like i'm hating or anything ;-) but....no scratch that, let me begin with this. Mariah is a good singer and all but compare to who she is up against, she shouldn't win a thing. Her vocals and songs that we could relate to when we were teens was cool...when we were teens. but now this emancipation of a so called mimi is ridiculous.

late registration....dope, get lifted...classic, Be...so good i had to buy it twice; lil mimi realizing she's free...that would've been tight if i wrote...pricesless...but uhhh...no.

as i close i just have a couple of jadakiss why questions

why does my boss email me on my personal accounts...especially when i have 2 work emails...especially when my signature is "i make Black history Everyday, I don't need a month"
that's cool though, i love to reply to her emails.

why is common performing at the chi hob 3 nights in a row

why is my lil cuz so retarded...she is hilarious "check up on it" oh my bad...no internet

why is bush actin like he tryin to get osama, why don't we impeach him and elect obama...yeah i need to finish reading that book...or at least get past the 3rd chapter

why is everybody still sleepin on jean grae, i promise "not like me" is my theme song

why is houstons on st. charles not houstons anymore

why do we have to go all the way to baton rouge to get cheesecake bistro

why cant i find an af. amer special on tv after feb. 28th

why did sprint raise prices after the merge with nextel

why doesn't corinne have a cell phone yet...my gosh katrina better teach u something...glad u found me

why my lil sis having issues at her new school...handle ur business

that's okay barcardi, i've been anti social too

lo siento por ti ;-( not in the sarcastic way that we invented the phrase in but I'm sorry to all that I have been anti-social to the umpth degree. I've just been living in Post-Katrina New Orleans and well just don't feel like talking to anyone. It's not that I'm maliciously screening and dodging calls but the ringer is just kept on permanent silent, the days pass, mornings i wake up go to work, come home and watch a little t.v. and go to sleep, very uneventful.

I think that's why i write in this blog, so i can have a vicarious phone conversation through my writings...i know its a lame excuse but well, i'm not trying to hurt anyones feelings cause i promise "it's me, not u" lol

On another subject, I watched the first part of Henry "Skip" Gates' Af. Amer. tracing the roots special. http://www.pbs.org/wnet/aalives/ That guy is always on point. Common once said "Not knowing the future, I don't repeat the past. I know enough to know I don't know much" well i add on because not knowing my past i cant fully see my future. There was so much freedom in knowing the history of their families and the stories though not all good provided them with answers and showed ways in which Black communities were held together after the abolition of slavery through the Black church.

Gates stated something in which I always knew, to pharaphrase "racism wasn't about pigmentation, or the color of skin...it was about economics" Throughout the last year and a half of my undergrad studies I started to really have an interest in sociology and take many classes dealing with race gender and class. I started to explore the word and practice of capitalism and how it relates to slavery, reconstruction, post reconstruction, civil rights movement and present time.

Willie Lynch exposed this secret conspirancy to us through his speech, "the making of a slave" (sorry for the long quotes but its my blog...lo sient por ti...u know how i mean it)

"...I am here to introduce you to a method of solving them. In my bag here, I HAVE A FULL PROOF METHOD FOR CONTROLLING YOUR BLACK SLAVES. I guarantee every one of you that if installed correctly IT WILL CONTROL THE SLAVES FOR AT LEAST 300 HUNDREDS YEARS. My method is simple. Any member of your family or your overseer can use it. I HAVE OUTLINED A NUMBER OF DIFFERENCES AMONG THE SLAVES; AND I TAKE THESE DIFFERENCES AND MAKE THEM BIGGER. I USE FEAR, DISTRUST AND ENVY FOR CONTROL PURPOSES. These methods have worked on my modest plantation in the West Indies and it will work throughout the South. Take this simple little list of differences and think about them. On top of my list is "AGE" but it's there only because it starts with an "A." The second is "COLOR" or shade, there is INTELLIGENCE, SIZE, SEX, SIZES OF PLANTATIONS, STATUS on plantations, ATTITUDE of owners, whether the slaves live in the valley, on a hill, East, West, North, South, have fine hair, course hair, or is tall or short. Now that you have a list of differences, I shall give you a outline of action, but before that, I shall assure you that DISTRUST IS STRONGER THAN TRUST AND ENVY STRONGER THAN ADULATION, RESPECT OR ADMIRATION. The Black slaves after receiving this indoctrination shall carry on and will become self refueling and self generating for HUNDREDS of years, maybe THOUSANDS. Don't forget you must pitch the OLD black Male vs. the YOUNG black Male, and the YOUNG black Male against the OLD black male. You must use the DARK skin slaves vs. the LIGHT skin slaves, and the LIGHT skin slaves vs. the DARK skin slaves. You must use the FEMALE vs. the MALE. And the MALE vs. the FEMALE. You must also have you white servants and over- seers distrust all Blacks. But it is NECESSARY THAT YOUR SLAVES TRUST AND DEPEND ON US. THEY MUST LOVE, RESPECT AND TRUST ONLY US. Gentlemen, these kits are your keys to control. Use them. Have your wives and children use them, never miss an opportunity. IF USED INTENSELY FOR ONE YEAR, THE SLAVES THEMSELVES WILL REMAIN PERPETUALLY DISTRUSTFUL. Thank you gentlemen."

Divide and conquer has always been the "american way" and it is still prevalant today. I believe that capitalism is the umbrella in which racism, sexism, classism and other -ism are byproducts (no one is more/less powerful than the next). So many people are dividing themselves based on who is the "more oppressed" group...guess what....there is none, if we keep fussing and fighting over hierarchy of oppression, that group who has been at the top will continue to be at the top. Audre Lourde states, "The Master's Tools Will Never Dismantle the Master's House"

Let that soak for a while and ima be back tomorrow.

6 sentences....

that was all that was allocated to talking about Katrina and the rebuilding of New Orleans and the Gulf Coast. That's nothing when he spent more than 30 min. justifying the war in Iraq and the U.S. bring democracy to these countries...oh but wait before he started his speech, he acknowledged the spirit, life and courageous life struggles of Mrs. Coretta Scott King, then without a doubt he began to go against everything that Mr. & Mrs. King's fought for.

throughout the whole speech i was disgusted because i wanted to know who are the 41% of people who still approve of him? i cant speak on this anymore cause my nerves are getting bad, plus like he said he is extending the patriot act...no not the voting rights act, to help guarantee the enfranchisement of Black voters, but prolonging the patriot act so that gov't can have the right to your most intimate conversations thereby leaving the first amendment completely null and void.

i love john legend's cover of nina simone's "don't let me be misunderstood" I saw a jadore commercial very recently that used ms. simone's version...i was very suprised. it's a trip because 2 years ago i had no idea who nina simone was but now i recognize her genious has influenced almost every piece of music i listen to. when i was working at a Black art gallery i met this teacher and we began talking about this piece that dealt with Black body politics and she began to sing this song:
"She does not know Her beauty, She thinks her brown body Has no glory.If she could dance Naked, Under palm trees And see her image in the river She would know.But there are no palm trees On the street, And dishwater gives back no images."

That song was in my head for like a month. I understood everything that Ms. Simone said about this woman, after all I just got was installing my dishwasher when i heard the song.

i thought this would be longer but in the words of ms. badu

"Steady on the grind Stead on the grind
‘Cause I got to make it happen
my family depending on me
Steady on the grind Steady on the grind
‘Cause I got to make it happen
‘aint nobody gone do it for me"